There are levels, percentages, and measurements in our heart felt emotions. We will say we love something and it is true, but it has a conscious or subconscious level of importance to us. It is easy to understand when thinking about a certain food we love compared to a person we love. One we could easily give up and the other would be something we could not live without.
All of us start out as pure children naïve to the evil things of the world. Children believe everyone until that one person comes along to lie to them and the child catches onto it. As the pure and innocent child grows encountering more and more evil things at higher levels and cost they develop walls. Coldness sets into their hearts and evil things begin to replace the good and innocence. Our emotions become sized.
A person who one day wakes up to the realization of the world’s fake love and selfishness starts looking for a way out. They see themselves living in this dark, don’t care, and revengeful day to day life style and thinks to themselves “I am sick and tired of this“, “I want out“, or “is there not a better way“? I had those thoughts.
I heard a voice speak to me inside my mind, heart, and soul “try Me“. I was raised going to church, but the world had corrupted my soul over and over into a dark, revengeful, and hateful state towards all people. I was full of evil using people like I was, deceiving people like I was, and trusting absolutely no one else. I was tired of this what seem to be an unending circle of darkness going around and around. The voice said once again, “try Me, you have tried everything else“. The voice was right and I knew it. It was God.
I had almost no love in my heart and my relationship with God started out with a one percent love for Him. I put our relationship on a trial basis, but I would go after Him as hard as I did the world. I would challenge Him with the toughest questions a person could ask. As time went on and He answered my questions my love grew to higher and higher percentages. I actually started seeing within myself a much nicer and happier person.
I like to believe this present day that I have reached the one hundred percent all in love with God for saving my soul, saving me from myself, and setting me free from the devil’s control. I found love is THE CORE of God. He loved me when no one else did. He loved me for who I am without all the layers and walls of lies I had built up. You cannot not find a more trustworthy love than with God directly.
A very, very powerful thought hit me a couple of weeks ago while talking with God. I was in the scriptures where Jesus said, Mtt. 7:23 “And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.” It hit me strongly that I cannot describe the blow that hit my spirit. I love God so much for changing my life and saving me from continually being evil. I believe God revealed to me another aspect of my love towards Him. The thought was, it would be hell to me just to hear God say the words to me, “…depart from me…” “…I never knew you…“. If there is anyone I would want to accept me it would be God.
I would feel hell already from just those words of rejection from the one I love the most. It would be hell long before you sent me to the actual lake of eternal fire and torment. We have people today and we should examine ourselves that talk the talk of Christianity, but inside their spirit they are not right with God. God allows all people to do things in His name with the hopes of true and pure repentance with Him. Fake and hypocritical people with false facades will be rejected by God, but true lovers of God must be careful and diligent to keep themselves in a ready state with God.
The thoughts of God saying to me, “…depart from me…” “…I never knew you…” devastated me. I would not want the tiniest measurement of time to be absent from God. This is where the levels, percentages, and measurements of your love come into the light. How much do you really love God. Not what you tell people, but what you know when you are all alone and only God sees your spirit.
God showed me something that I had not seen before and I hope your spirit will see this also. Focus your thoughts on how much to you love God. In this next section I believe you will have a life changing experience with God Luke 7:47 “Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little.” What is the measurement of your love in the category of forgiven much or forgiven little?
HOW MUCH DID JESUS the MAN LOVE GOD?
The Holy Spirit of God created a fleshly male baby inside the virgin Mary as a temple of flesh to house the concentration of His Almighty Spirit for the soul loving purpose to save us from our sins. This baby had a calling of God upon him for you and I, but he had to go through the gauntlet of this world like as we did.
As that male baby grew into a child having fellowship with the Almighty God within him everyday there was not a second without God. As a young boy he was curious about the temple man had created for God and the words of God taught there. Luke 2:46 “…they found him in the temple, sitting in the midst of the doctors, both hearing them, and asking them questions.” I guess you could God’s living temple, Jesus the boy, met with the stone temple God allowed to be built with man’s hands. Interesting thought of the two temples met.
For thirty years Jesus the man had the presence of God inside him and the daily relationship before he started his God called ministry. Can you imagine having God inside your thoughts, God’s feelings inside your heart, and God’s love for mankind? God looking through your eyes and hearing through your ears?
If you read about Jesus you will see he encountered the lies, the users, the selfish, the fake, the hypocrites, and the evil abuse all of us faced growing up in this world. Jesus the man clung to God and protected his walk with God. He was careful to say only what God shared with him to say. He did things only according to what God wanted done. Jesus the man loved the one and True God inside him one hundred percent.
ANOTHER ASPECT OF LOVE
At the closing of his earthly ministry that God had originally sent him to do we see Jesus was in the garden praying to God. This last night of prayer Jesus was Luke 22:42 “Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.” v44 “And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground.“
I have always thought of Jesus at this moment of time was seeing the chains, the slapping and the pulling of his beard; spitting on him and all the lies, rejections, and physical torture as the reason and dread of going through this physical pain and suffering. I would envision he saw the forty strips upon his back, the crown of thorns cutting into his head, and the nails through his feet and hands were the reason of him saying, “…not my will, but thine, be done.“
At this moment of talking with God He showed me the question of “do you think it was all the pain and suffering in his body that caused him to pray that prayer“? God reminded me of my own thoughts of the hell I would experience if God just said the words to depart from Him for He never knew me. This makes you stop and think what was Jesus really focused on in his prayer?
Could it be Jesus the man did see all the physical punishment and death coming his way, but that was not what was bothering him to say, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me…“? Jesus the man lived every second of his earthly life with the cherished and treasured love with God Almighty. Could it be Jesus was seeing something else coming his way? I absolutely love every moment God shares with me.
Could it be Jesus was seeing the moment he would say and experience on the cross, Mtt.27:46 “…My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” Could it be his love for God was so strong that all the pain and suffering of the body had no comparison to that moment God would leave him to take on all our sins. It wasn’t the crown of thorns, forty strips upon his back, or the nail through his hands and feet, but what he dreaded the most was the moment God had to leave him for our sins. I pray God never leaves me. How about you?
Jesus grew from a baby into a child always having a divine presence with him. As a young boy he always had God looking through his eyes seeing the unseen. His ears were always hearing understandings of truth and how things really are below the surface. Jesus never knew what it was like to be without God.
Jn 5:17 “…My Father worketh hitherto, and I work.“
v18 “Therefore the Jews sought the more to kill him, because he not only had broken the sabbath, but said also that God was his Father, making himself equal with God.”
v19 “…The Son can do nothing of himself, but what he seeth the Father do: for what things soever he doeth, these also doeth the Son likewise.“
v20 “For the Father loveth the Son, and sheweth him all things that himself doeth: and he will shew him greater works than these, that ye may marvel.“
v30 “I can of mine own self do nothing: as I hear, I judge: and my judgment is just; because I seek not mine own will, but the will of the Father which hath sent me.“
Jesus the man saw through his own eyes God facing death through him. The centurion’s servant ready to die Luke 7:2 , the ruler’s daughter dead on her bed Mtt. 9:18 , the funeral procession with the only son of the mother being carried out of the city Luke 7:12-15, and Lazarus being dead four days in the tomb Jn 11:17 was all God inside Jesus the man experiencing first hand the power of life returning to all these people. Jn. 5:21 “For as the Father raiseth up the dead, and quickeneth them; even so the Son quickeneth whom he will.” Jesus the man must have loved every moment seeing God’s love pouring out onto others.
It was time for Jesus the man to go. He had a life here on earth like no other human being had ever experienced. The last night of prayer: Luke 22:44 “And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground.” I don’t know about you, but I would never want to experience any moment without God. I would never want to be Samson not knowing God had left me. It is a horrible thought.
Could it be Jesus knew the time was coming God was going to leave him and no earthly pain could compare to the spiritual separation he had known his entire earthly life. That separation was for us to be reunited through Jesus to God once again, but someone had to take that sinful separating moment in our place with holy innocent blood paying for our atonement.
How much did Jesus love God? How much did the apostles love God? How much do you love God? Does it pain your heart and soul to think how it would feel if God said to you, depart from Me I never knew you? Would just those words be hell to you? Loving God is beyond the pains of this world, religious traditions, and any false riches the devil may tempt you with. 1 Jn. 4:4 “…greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.“
God is calling you like he did me, “try Me“, “try Me, you have tried everything else” Trust your whole heart and life unto God. You will never be the same again. I promise because it happened to me.
Here is your starting point with God:
Acts 2:38 “…Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.” Get baptized in Jesus name and receive the Holy Ghost.
Here is your mid way fellowshipping point:
Luke 11:9 “And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.” Start your personal daily fellowship with God.
Here is your ending point:
Mtt. 25:23 “…Well done, good and faithful servant…enter thou into the joy of thy lord.” A worthy goal.
Start your journey with the Lord that will be an adventure everyday just like Jesus did until He calls you home. God bless you and I hope you see the measurement of your love.