Month: November 2020

I’m Sorry God

“I’m Sorry God” started within my mind and heart towards God. When my eyes were opened with understandings of the damage I had done to others and myself the “I’m Sorry God” came to
the surface of my lips sounding out to heaven above “I’m Sorry God“.

The list of things start scrolling up before my eyes with the attachment of memories playing the key moments of thumbnail videos of the things I said and the things I had done the “I’m Sorry God” begins to pound louder and louder with each drum beat of my heart – “I’m
Sorry God“.

“I’m Sorry God” for the things I have done. I saw within myself for the first time that it was me and not those outside of me. They had their own part they played in my life, but the true choice I made within myself for the path I would take. It is me, O God. I allowed those outside of me to push me in a direction I now see was so very wrong on my part – “I’m Sorry God“.

When your mind wakes up to yourself seeing the truth under your own nose the harsh reality sets in how you could have stood up in your own heart and mind choosing a better path with less regrets and sorrows left behind. I have hurt so many people, “I’m Sorry God“.

There are some I wish I could tell them “I’m Sorry“, but they are gone. The ones who are still around even though I could tell them “I’m Sorry” the truth is the deeds I have done will
never be forgotten and the words “I’m Sorry God” would take a long time to be accepted.

Examining my life and taking inventory of the things stored in my mind and heart makes me look down to the earth feeling unworthy to lift my eyes to say to you, “I’m Sorry God“. I can really relate to the son who left home on bad terms coming to his senses in the hog pen of sin not
worthy to return to how things were before (Luke 15:11-17).

God, I cannot thank you enough for being the Father waiting on me every day to come home. I cannot thank you enough for loving me beyond the things I have done. Your love for me has changed my life. You faithfully waited on me to wake up one day to see the things that were beating me down. All you wanted was for me to see with understanding and return home to you with “I’m Sorry God” turning my back on the bad choices of this life (Luke 15:20-24).

Father, I have walked with you seeing how people treated you in the streets. How you came among your own, but they rejected you – “I’m Sorry God“. I saw how you tried to show them and teach the ways of God more perfectly in humility and love. You healed what no man could heal and the leaders still hated you – “I’m Sorry God“.

You looked at me as you passed carrying the 40 stripes of punishment upon your back that should have been mine. Your face was red from the slapping and the pulling of your beard from the ill treatment that should have been mine. I saw you climbing the hill with the wooden cross of death in my place – “I’m Sorry God“. As you were suspended between heaven and earth with blood pouring out of your head, hands, and feet the power of your love to take my place caused a cry in my heart of “I’m Sorry God” you had to go through this for me came crying out from my soul.

I heard to the two thieves speaking to you from their crosses on each side of you. I agreed with the one that said you did not deserve this death because you were sinless. I could tell he was conveying to you the “I’m Sorry God“, which again was all you wanted was the understanding
“I’m Sorry God” with complete repentance of the wrong doings he had done in his life. You changed my life when you said to him that this day he would be with you in paradise.

You died in my place paying the death debt I owed. “I’m Sorry God” your body had to go through that for me. I am glad you raised that body back to life three days later creating a way for all of us to pass through like a doorway to a new life leaving our old ways behind us. You were unappreciated while among us and paid a high price to save us.

I am glad the “I’m Sorry God” can take me down the path of repentance, being baptized in Jesus name applying your blood of forgiveness washing away all my sins of the past buried in the watery grave to rise again out of the water being filled with the gift of the Holy Spirit of life inside me as you are speaking in power with a language I did not know as a sign to me and to others that may hear it is you making me a new creature in Christ born of the water and of the Spirit (Jn. 3; Acts 2:38)

TODAY – A DIFFERENT KIND OF “I’M SORRY GOD“

As I walk this life with You, Jesus, being the roommate in my fleshly temple, the “I’m Sorry God” starts to return to my lips. I have my ups and downs being far from perfect, but the “I’m Sorry God” is not as strong for personal reasons as what I see in the world around me today.

The day I am living in is a day of many people claiming to be Your children. They proudly associate themselves with Your church. They proclaim they are members of Your body of Christ, but their fruit are very far (very far) from the fruits of Your Holy Spirit (Gal. 5:22). They have disguised themselves with their selfish and greedy wolves in Christian sheep clothing to the world.

The “I’m Sorry God” begins to sadden me in the thoughts of people judge You according to others claiming to be Your children. They use You as a marketing tool for their own selfish reasons and gain. They deceive people with their smooth talk and lying promises just like the devil did to Eve. God, You are being used as a stamp of approval or a badge of trust for the earthly gain
of power and prestige.

“I’m Sorry God” for anyone that judges You according to my shortcomings and others who are trying to be a real Christian and a real child of God, but I have the weaknesses of my flesh to battle with every day. The difference I see are people purposely using You to benefit themselves in deceiving others to trust them for their personal selfish gain – “I’m Sorry God“

I am sadden once again, not about myself, but for those judging You by the action and words of others claiming to be one of Your family, which cause me to once again say to you, “I’m Sorry God“. You don’t deserve this treatment just like in the days you walked this earth to save us
from our sins. Please hear our prayers of “I’m Sorry God” for those who pretend to be the servants of light, but their hearts are black as night and the ones who act like sheep, but inside they are wolves lullabying the world with their lies to sleep.

“I’m Sorry God” if we have forgotten that you are our ever present Savior and it takes hard times to remind us. “I’m Sorry God” for the evil that has infiltrated America over the many years and has come into a place of blind and corrupt power.

You are the only cure for a mind that has locked onto a lie they believe to be the truth. Alcoholics, drug addicts, and other things have places to go for help, but there is no place to go if a mind is locked onto a false reality. The only way I became a Christian was because you showed me the lie of life I was living and the born again experience (Acts 2:38).

PRESENT DAY NEWS

But realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come. For men WILL BE lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy, unloving, irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self-control, brutal, haters of good, treacherous, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, holding to a form of godliness, although they have denied its power;…always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth…But evil men and impostors will proceed from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived 2 Tim. 3:1-5, 7, 13). Did any one person or persons pop up in your mind when you read the different characteristics?

The above is why I am saying to God, “I’m Sorry God” because of the large scale of people this has reached and we all have studied what happens to the people in history when they became like this. It is ONLY by His grace any of us have a sound mind seeing and perceiving common sense reality. I have gone from the “I’m Sorry God” about myself to adding the “I’m Sorry God” for others.

 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but wanting to have their ears tickled, they will accumulate for themselves teachers in accordance to their own desires, and will turn away their ears from the truth and will turn aside to myths (2 Tim. 4:3, 4).When I read  “…in accordance to their own desires…” I thought of “we have the right to our own opinion, but not the right to our own facts.“

All it takes is a desire in your heart for truth. The truth about yourself, the truth about all things around you, and all the truth about God. Open our eyes Lord with Your wisdom that is pure, peaceable, gentle, and easily to be entreated full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy (Ja. 3:17) overflowingly into our perception and understanding. Does this kind of wisdom not sound awesome to you?

Remove the “I’m Sorry God” from your life being born again (Acts 2:38) and start a daily journey fellowshipping God in all the beautiful truth He will share with you and turn yourself into a prayer warrior for the “I’m Sorry God” for the condition of the lost souls in this world.

The Plan for You

To build something you must have an idea, a thought, and a plan before you make it to come into existence. You want something, but it does not physically exist. Your idea, thought, and plan comes from within who you are and what you want. A plan from within you.

I have always thought God had an idea, a thought, and a plan for all His creations, which I still believe is true. He said, “Let there be light” and the sun was created from God’s complex idea, thought, and a plan of a purpose that scientist are still trying to figure out completely today.

Now, let us empty out our minds removing all created things. Start with removing mankind, all creatures on the earth, the earth itself, the sun, moon, and stars. Do see emptiness and void? There is one more thing to remove and I see a hint of something far away. Let us remove heaven, the throne among the stars, the assembly of angels on the north mount, and the clouds that enshroud the most High God (Is. 14:13, 14), by which no one can approach (1 Tim. 6:16).

Have you removed all things that you believed existed? Are you thinking about God is now the only thing out there? If you are seeing only God existing do you remember I said, “I have always thought God had an idea, a thought, and a plan…”? I hope you said, “yes”.

We have God out there all alone existing with no limit of distance and nothing outside of Himself. He is One Spirit with no boundaries, no limits of knowledge, and no limits of power. There is nothing, but God. An idea, a thought, and a plan are invisible things inside our heads just like God’s ideas, thought, and plans are invisible in His Spirit.

I never thought of God Himself as the Idea, the Thought, and the Plan. John 1:1, 2 “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. The same was in the beginning with God.” God is not just a plan, but He is The Plan of all plans. God Himself is the Plan. The “Word” in John 1:1 means logos in the original written form meaning an idea, thought, and plan.

God Himself is the Spirit of Plans. He is Who He is, the I AM THAT I AM of All plans. Everything He creates have their own plans and purposes by His want and desires. He took the plans from within Himself from the knowledge of good to first create the heavens, the throne among the stars, the assembly of angels on the north mount, and the clouds that enshrouded Himself for their protection.

God being the Word (idea, thought, and plan) Himself created each angel with his own plan and purpose. Every angel was an independent free thinking physical creation made from God’s planned side of the knowledge of good. The reason I say, “from God’s planned side of the knowledge of good” is because NO creation that God brought into original existence had no evil or the knowledge of evil in them.

The key thought to focus on is God is THE PLAN (Word) Himself of all created plans in existence. God is a Spirit and that Spirit is The Plan. The angels had a plan and purpose upon each of them. Lucifer was a created with a plan to be the “star of the morning, son of the dawn” (Is. 14:12).

Look at Lucifer before he fell to sin. His personal plan given to Him by God had the seal of perfection upon it full of wisdom and perfect in beauty. He was covered with every precious stones imaginable held together by gold settings and sockets. His plan given to him from God was the anointed cherub on the holy mountain of God in heaven. He had the authority and the ability to walk in the midst of the stones of fire blameless in all his ways (Ezek. 28:3-15). This was Lucifer’s personal chosen plan from God.

God is THE Plan (the Word) and Lucifer had his stand alone exiting plan and purpose. God has given the power of choice inside all the angel’s plans. God chose from His Plan of the knowledge of good for them, but they had their own power of choice to accept who they were or reject their God given purpose and plan.

This is the very cool understanding that all things have a chosen plan of existence from God Himself, but some creations have the inserted power of choice to reject who they were meant to be by God seeking another avenue of existence like Lucifer.

When Lucifer did not like his plan and design he rejected God’s anointed plan for some other choice. Lucifer said to himself and any angel (a third of them) that would listen to him that he will ascend into heaven, he will exalt his throne above the stars of God: he will sit upon the mount of the congregation in the sides of the north: he will ascend above the heights of the clouds; and he will be like the most High God (Is. 14:13, 14)

Now, look at it from the point of view of his plans and God’s plans. Lucifer wanted to take God’s Plan (Word) and make it his own. He wanted to be something his plans were never meant to be or could even handle. He made the free will choice of his created perfection and blameless plans to try to use violence to take God’s Plan from Himself and make it his own, which caused his downfall into an eternal sin state of plans along with a third of angels following him. This was all because he did not like his plans God made for his life. Lucifer became haughty minded because of his beauty allowing corruption in his wisdom by his reason of his splendor (Ezek. 28:17). He deemed his own creation to be not enough.

God is the Spirit of All ideas, thoughts, and plans. God is the only One who can handle having the plans of the knowledge of good and the plans of the knowledge of evil inside Himself. God never created any creation with the plans of the knowledge of evil. All creations were created with the plans and purpose of the knowledge of good. It was the free will power choice of the ones God gave in their plans to make the decision if they did not like who they were.

Lucifer’s angelic body and mind was not capable to handle the knowledge of good and the knowledge of evil. He was never built to carry the burden of the knowledge of evil. When he rejected who he was believing the knowledge of evil would make him better than God he found out evil was to powerful and it took him over completely. Now, Lucifer, the devil, is under the plans of the knowledge of evil to be separated, contained, and controlled in the lake of fire.

Why did God create all things under the plans of the knowledge of good? God knew the knowledge of evil and the results of evil making the choice for Himself he wanted to create from the plans of the knowledge of good. Only God has the power to separate, contain, and control the plans of the knowledge of evil.

The same thing happened to mankind through Eve and Adam (Ge. 3). They were the only creations made in God’s image and likeness after the plans of the knowledge of good. What made mankind’s plans so special from the angels was being made of two parts. One of the natural dust of the earth and the other spirit part of God, a living soul. Mankind’s unique individual plans from God’s plan was the hope we will look to Him by our free will power of choice to be the plans He originally hoped we would be.

Mankind is born under the plans of the knowledge of evil because of the choice of Adam and eve with the destined plans to be eternally separated, contained, and controlled in the lake of eternal fire prepared originally only for the devil and his demons.

BLOWING THE MIND TIME

Why did John point out in the beginning was the Word? The Word was with God being God Himself. God is the idea, thought, and plans of all creations. Ideas, thoughts, and plans cannot be seen just like God’s Spirit being everywhere at once and at the same time. The Word and God are not two separate beings. God is THE SPIRIT WORD and THE PHYSICAL implemented PLAN.

All things came into being through Him (THE PLAN). God is the plan Himself. Apart from Him nothing came into being. The Word (THE PLAN) became flesh and dwelt among us and we saw His glory what appeared to us as the Son of God (Jn1:13, 14). The two parts of God’s original plan for Adam and Eve were redeemed through the two parts of Jesus being a man of flesh and the God Almighty in Spirit. God focused the fullness of His Godhead in the body of Jesus (Col. 2:9) while still being present everywhere at once. This is how God could be in Jesus while being baptized in the water with a dove descending as a sign to John the Baptist, and a voice coming out of heaven saying in whom I am well pleased (Matt. 3:16,17). The One true God can multitask far beyond what we can perceive.

This is so massive that you will have to read all other places where Jesus was tempted and challenged to give up His plan from God as a man and His vessel being the temple of the Almighty God to follow the devil’s and mankind’s temptations. Jesus is the perfect PLAN for man to find his way back to God.

God’s purpose and plan was to save His children by partaking of the flesh and blood that through the death of the flesh of Jesus would bring power to destroy the plans of the knowledge of evil and death (Heb. 2:14) reconciling in the plans of the knowledge of good to the world unto Himself removing the stains of eternal sin from them (2 Cor. 5:19) through Jesus Christ.

God has a plan for all of us. It takes a choice on our part to be empowered enough to live up to that divine plan. We cannot do it on our own. We need to get inside the Plan of God. He gave it to Jesus and Jesus gave us the way, the truth, and the life plan to return to God living out our original plan God desired for us.

This is God’s plan of salvation:  “… Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.” Acts 2:38 This completes the two part of being born again of the water and of the spirit.

God came to us as a Father of creation with His PLAN of how He wanted things to be. When we sinned, His children, God came to us as a Son, Jesus, with His PLAN inside the flesh to save and redeem us. After the part of salvation of water baptism God comes to us with His PLAN as an indwelling Holy Spirit of Truth and power. The one true God came to us at three different times implementing His Plans. Only Jesus has the perfect blood PLAN of God to wash away our sins in water baptism. God’s Spirit does not have blood nor can He be killed. God made Himself the PLAN inside of Jesus for mankind’s redemption.

Through Jesus we can now have the PLANS of the knowledge of good and the power of God to separate, contain, and control the plans of the knowledge of evil we have experienced and encountered here on earth until He implements His Plan to take us home to heaven.

Remember God does not have a plan. GOD IS THE PLAN. He is simply being Who He is and nothing else with no down time to think about it. Lucifer tried being something else and look at the cost he brought on others including mankind. How much should we be who we are in Jesus instead of trying to be something else?

I pray you see yourself and the plan God created in you, especially for you.