I’m Sorry God

I’m Sorry God” started within my mind and heart towards God. When my eyes were opened with understandings of the damage I had done to others and myself the “I’m Sorry God” came to
the surface of my lips sounding out to heaven above “I’m Sorry God“.

The list of things start scrolling up before my eyes with the attachment of memories playing the key moments of thumbnail videos of the things I said and the things I had done the “I’m Sorry God” begins to pound louder and louder with each drum beat of my heart – “I’m
Sorry God
“.

I’m Sorry God” for the things I have done. I saw within myself for the first time that it was me and not those outside of me. They had their own part they played in my life, but the true choice I made within myself for the path I would take. It is me, O God. I allowed those outside of me to push me in a direction I now see was so very wrong on my part – “I’m Sorry God“.

When your mind wakes up to yourself seeing the truth under your own nose the harsh reality sets in how you could have stood up in your own heart and mind choosing a better path with less regrets and sorrows left behind. I have hurt so many people, “I’m Sorry God“.

There are some I wish I could tell them “I’m Sorry“, but they are gone. The ones who are still around even though I could tell them “I’m Sorry” the truth is the deeds I have done will
never be forgotten and the words “I’m Sorry God” would take a long time to be accepted.

Examining my life and taking inventory of the things stored in my mind and heart makes me look down to the earth feeling unworthy to lift my eyes to say to you, “I’m Sorry God“. I can really relate to the son who left home on bad terms coming to his senses in the hog pen of sin not
worthy to return to how things were before (Luke 15:11-17).

God, I cannot thank you enough for being the Father waiting on me every day to come home. I cannot thank you enough for loving me beyond the things I have done. Your love for me has changed my life. You faithfully waited on me to wake up one day to see the things that were beating me down. All you wanted was for me to see with understanding and return home to you with “I’m Sorry God” turning my back on the bad choices of this life (Luke 15:20-24).

Father, I have walked with you seeing how people treated you in the streets. How you came among your own, but they rejected you – “I’m Sorry God“. I saw how you tried to show them and teach the ways of God more perfectly in humility and love. You healed what no man could heal and the leaders still hated you – “I’m Sorry God“.

You looked at me as you passed carrying the 40 stripes of punishment upon your back that should have been mine. Your face was red from the slapping and the pulling of your beard from the ill treatment that should have been mine. I saw you climbing the hill with the wooden cross of death in my place – “I’m Sorry God“. As you were suspended between heaven and earth with blood pouring out of your head, hands, and feet the power of your love to take my place caused a cry in my heart of “I’m Sorry God” you had to go through this for me came crying out from my soul.

I heard to the two thieves speaking to you from their crosses on each side of you. I agreed with the one that said you did not deserve this death because you were sinless. I could tell he was conveying to you the “I’m Sorry God“, which again was all you wanted was the understanding
I’m Sorry God” with complete repentance of the wrong doings he had done in his life. You changed my life when you said to him that this day he would be with you in paradise.

You died in my place paying the death debt I owed. “I’m Sorry God” your body had to go through that for me. I am glad you raised that body back to life three days later creating a way for all of us to pass through like a doorway to a new life leaving our old ways behind us. You were unappreciated while among us and paid a high price to save us.

I am glad the “I’m Sorry God” can take me down the path of repentance, being baptized in Jesus name applying your blood of forgiveness washing away all my sins of the past buried in the watery grave to rise again out of the water being filled with the gift of the Holy Spirit of life inside me as you are speaking in power with a language I did not know as a sign to me and to others that may hear it is you making me a new creature in Christ born of the water and of the Spirit (Jn. 3; Acts 2:38)

TODAY – A DIFFERENT KIND OF “I’M SORRY GOD

As I walk this life with You, Jesus, being the roommate in my fleshly temple, the “I’m Sorry God” starts to return to my lips. I have my ups and downs being far from perfect, but the “I’m Sorry God” is not as strong for personal reasons as what I see in the world around me today.

The day I am living in is a day of many people claiming to be Your children. They proudly associate themselves with Your church. They proclaim they are members of Your body of Christ, but their fruit are very far (very far) from the fruits of Your Holy Spirit (Gal. 5:22). They have disguised themselves with their selfish and greedy wolves in Christian sheep clothing to the world.

The “I’m Sorry God” begins to sadden me in the thoughts of people judge You according to others claiming to be Your children. They use You as a marketing tool for their own selfish reasons and gain. They deceive people with their smooth talk and lying promises just like the devil did to Eve. God, You are being used as a stamp of approval or a badge of trust for the earthly gain
of power and prestige.

I’m Sorry God” for anyone that judges You according to my shortcomings and others who are trying to be a real Christian and a real child of God, but I have the weaknesses of my flesh to battle with every day. The difference I see are people purposely using You to benefit themselves in deceiving others to trust them for their personal selfish gain – “I’m Sorry God

I am sadden once again, not about myself, but for those judging You by the action and words of others claiming to be one of Your family, which cause me to once again say to you, “I’m Sorry God“. You don’t deserve this treatment just like in the days you walked this earth to save us
from our sins. Please hear our prayers of “I’m Sorry God” for those who pretend to be the servants of light, but their hearts are black as night and the ones who act like sheep, but inside they are wolves lullabying the world with their lies to sleep.

I’m Sorry God” if we have forgotten that you are our ever present Savior and it takes hard times to remind us. “I’m Sorry God” for the evil that has infiltrated America over the many years and has come into a place of blind and corrupt power.

You are the only cure for a mind that has locked onto a lie they believe to be the truth. Alcoholics, drug addicts, and other things have places to go for help, but there is no place to go if a mind is locked onto a false reality. The only way I became a Christian was because you showed me the lie of life I was living and the born again experience (Acts 2:38).

PRESENT DAY NEWS

But realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come. For men WILL BE lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy, unloving, irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self-control, brutal, haters of good, treacherous, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, holding to a form of godliness, although they have denied its power;…always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth…But evil men and impostors will proceed from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived 2 Tim. 3:1-5, 7, 13). Did any one person or persons pop up in your mind when you read the different characteristics?

The above is why I am saying to God, “I’m Sorry God” because of the large scale of people this has reached and we all have studied what happens to the people in history when they became like this. It is ONLY by His grace any of us have a sound mind seeing and perceiving common sense reality. I have gone from the “I’m Sorry God” about myself to adding the “I’m Sorry God” for others.

 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but wanting to have their ears tickled, they will accumulate for themselves teachers in accordance to their own desires, and will turn away their ears from the truth and will turn aside to myths (2 Tim. 4:3, 4).When I read  “…in accordance to their own desires…” I thought of “we have the right to our own opinion, but not the right to our own facts.

All it takes is a desire in your heart for truth. The truth about yourself, the truth about all things around you, and all the truth about God. Open our eyes Lord with Your wisdom that is pure, peaceable, gentle, and easily to be entreated full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy (Ja. 3:17) overflowingly into our perception and understanding. Does this kind of wisdom not sound awesome to you?

Remove the “I’m Sorry God” from your life being born again (Acts 2:38) and start a daily journey fellowshipping God in all the beautiful truth He will share with you and turn yourself into a prayer warrior for the “I’m Sorry God” for the condition of the lost souls in this world.

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