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Complete Partner

Every person that looks at a drinking glass with water inside it will see it with their own perception and understanding. One may see the glass of water as being half full and another would see it as half empty. Our spirits inside our bodies are like that glass of water. Our spirit is being filled everyday with something. The focus today is on ‘how much does your partner complete you?‘

The drinking glass is filled by another outside source. The water placed inside it can come from different sources such as a water pitcher, a fountain, or a sink. Our partner in life is that outside source that pours into our spirit’s glass a level of themselves. After they are poured into us those seconds leave the present and become a memory of the past. The question is does that level from them complete you or does it leave you half full or half empty?

Sharing this life with another person as your partner may or may not complete you in filling your spirit’s glass of water. They may leave you half full or half empty depending on your perception and understanding. Why it is dependent upon your perception and understanding is because you may be seeing only a part of the picture and not the whole.

Relationships can be together based on a partial desire or want. Some pursue after a partner on the reason of their physical appearance, a helper of reaching their career goal, or their financial status. These are not a completion of filling your spirit’s glass full inside of you. They are half reasons of having a partner in this life in a relationship. This is something you find out later after you have captured the want or desire you saw in them. They are exactly or not exactly what you thought you really wanted.

When you first saw the person you wanted to make your partner. Can you remember what was the first thoughts and beating of your heart when you saw them? Was it because they had a beautiful face and body? Was it because they look like someone who could understand and help your future career desires? Was it because they look like they could give you a life and style of security you wanted to live?

Happiness and unhappiness is sometimes lost to us in our understanding and perception. We ask ourselves, ‘Why am I not happy?‘ I got the person I saw and wanted, ‘Why do I feel lacking?‘, ‘Why do I feel empty?‘, ‘How can I feel alone?‘ when I have someone beside me as a partner.

If you are feeling any of these questions it may be your spirit’s glass within you that you are drinking from with the desire of feeling complete is being filled only half full or half empty. Your believing of a “Complete Partner” has left your spirit short of being completely full and satisfied inside. If you have none of these feelings and you feel completely full because of your partner that is wonderful, but does your partner feel the same as you?

You can be completely satisfied and feeling full in your spirit and be missing the insight to how your partner feels about you. “Complete Partner” is two people that have become one completely fulfilling one another to the top of their spirit’s drinking glass inside of them. You may have heard the phrase “It is your world and I live in it“. This statement is a way of hinting to whom you are speaking that they think the world should be as they see it and do as they believe things should be done. They are seeing only from their way and not placing themselves in other people’s situations to see from their perspective.

Dating someone is the crucial key to seeing past the want and the desires inside of you. This is where the “Love is blind” comes from. You are only seeing the part you want from the person you are courting and not the other half. If you truly want to have a full glass of completeness and satisfaction in your spirit’s glass from a partner all the days you live on this earth then you have to step back and see the total package, inside and out.

In time you will find if you get a partner based on the fantasy of having great sex with them or the children that will be produced. You will find out after time the sex is only a part (half full/half empty) of the relationship. You will have to deal with a personality, mannerism, and goals the other person may have in mind. You could be trapped in a relationship that your spirit’s glass within you will always be half full/ half empty.

In time you will find if you get a partner based on their good looks of what people would call, “eye candy” you may find their outward good looks is the opposite of their inside looks filled with bitterness, selfishness, and the world should bow at their feet attitude. You could end up being a caretaker in the relationship just to stay with them the rest of your life leaving your spirit’s glass within you always half full/half empty.

In time you will find if you get a partner based on the belief they can help further the career you are dreaming about that they have possibly the opposite goal in life even though they seem to have the qualities to boost your dream. You may find yourself comprising to their needs while your dream never comes to reality leaving your spirit’s glass half full/half empty.

Those who have found the “Complete Partner” from both sides of the relationship without any self deceit or self denial cannot understand the struggles of the majority of marriages and partnerships today. Their spirit glasses within are always full from each other to drink beautiful memories they give each other every day. Their perfect world of relationship that is the minority of this world has no clue of the loneliness, emptiness, and sufferings the rest of the majority others face.

Secretly married couples and partnerships have a partner that lives with a half full/half empty glass inside their spirit. They are playing the role of a “Complete Partner” through hidden tolerance, deep patience, understanding kindness, swallowed pride, honoring the other, giving up dreams, slow to anger, and allowing the other partner to continue to believe in their world while their glass in their spirit remains half full/half empty.

On the surface to the outside the home people see a marriage or partnership as two full glasses while hidden below the surfaces could be one full glass and the other half full/half empty in their spirits.

It is extremely crucial before you enter into a marriage or partnership that you see past your desires searching and examining your own motives to why you want to become one with the other person, while at the same time watching and listening to their desires in life.

Afterwards you may find out to do the right thing is to live with the knowledge your spirit’s glass will never be full from your partner to drink the good memories a “Complete Partner” would give you. There are no good answers for those in a half full/half empty relationship. Death is not a good answer. Divorce is not a good answer unless the relationship is violent, abusive, or harmful in any other way.

You can be two good people in a marriage or relationship and still be giving a half full/half empty to one another’s spiritual drinking glass in their soul. You can be devout church attending people and still be giving a half full/half empty to one another’s spiritual drinking glass in their soul. You can be upstanding citizens of your community and still be giving a half full/half empty to one another’s spiritual drinking glass in their soul.

You may have heard the statement “alone in a crowd“. This can be seen as a person who is physically not alone standing in a physical crowd of other people. So, physically “alone in a crowd” would not be true, but if you look at the inside of a person to their heart, mind, and soul than it can be true “alone in a crowd“. This statement is referring to being physically present with other people, but the people around you can be far away from perceiving and understanding the needs of your spirit. Just because a person chit chats or a general conversation does not mean it is filling the spiritual drinking glass inside the other person.

The co-workers you work with on a daily basis can be totally oblivious to how half full/half empty you feel every day. The perception and understanding of things is a discernment lost to the majority of mankind. People, marriages, and partners have eyes that can physically see, but are blind to perceiving the truth in others. People , marriages and partners have ears that can physically listen, but are deaf to understanding the real truth in others. A hard thing to live with on an half full/half empty glass in your spirit.

A LITTLE SIDE PATH:

If you have a true best friend that sees and hears you more than all others you had better fight to keep them and do what you need to do to protect the relationship because they are the support to your drinking glass inside your spirit to keep going when your live-in partner of marriage or relationship don’t understand you leaving you feeling half full/half empty.

BACK ON TRACK:

“Abiding Time” is another a half full/half empty glass in their spirit a person faces on a daily basis. When you are not with the “Complete Partner” you find yourself “Abiding Time” physically going through the motions of working and providing as is expected of you while your spirit is standing in this world with all kinds of things you would like to go and do slipping away as the clock of life ticks by.

There are two deaths we all will face. One will be the day when our physical bodies die returning to the dust of the earth. The other will be the day when our spirit faces the path to eternal death or the path to eternal life based on what our spirit contains within it from all the different things we took in from our life time on earth.

THE ANSWER:

If you are being the martyr sacrificing yourself as a caretaker of your marriage or partner to keep things with the appearance of a Complete Partnership the answer is to get the one who is greater inside you than the ones in the world (1 Jn. 4:4) To keep your sanity and your glass full with overflowing life is to allow God to move inside with your spirit.

God is the same yesterday, today, and forever (Heb. 13:8). You can have a “Complete Partner” relationship with Him as they did in the past and possibly greater depending on how much you give yourself to the relationship because there will be no misunderstanding you or not perceiving you. This spirit relationship with God is a promise of forgiveness and His power (Acts 2:38, 39) to live this life with more abundance (Jn. 10:10) than any other.

The only thing that will satisfy the thirst (Jn. 4:14) of your spirit living in a half full/half empty life is getting into a personal relationship with God. Don’t trust your spirit’s drinking glass totally on this world and the people in it because you will find more with the half full/half along with yourself. God longs for us to seek Him, reach out to Him, feel after Him and find Him, though He is not far from any one of us (Acts 17:27).

If you are blessed with a “Complete Partner” who understands you, gets you, and they can give you a wholeness feeling. Their love maybe enough to face death(s) in this world, but it will not enough to face the second death your spirit will face after this world. The majority of people don’t have the “Complete Partner” to help fill their spiritual glass full in this life. They are facing this life and the next life like a person “alone in a crowd” “abiding time” wondering how are they going to make it.

I am here to tell you, God CAN and WILL be your “Complete Partner“. You can be in that crowd, in a relationship, at work with co-workers who don’t understand while God is on the inside with Him accepting you and fulfilling you with His love that goes beyond all understanding.

He is still the same yesterday, today, and forever filling people with His Spirit into our little body containers overflowing with His joy unspeakable and full of glory (1 Pe. 1:8) that He has to speak for us (Acts 2:4) in that moment as a sign (Acts 2:11) to us and anyone around us He has joined as one with our spirit; and to finish this oneness with God all He asks us to do is to be baptized in Jesus name applying His sacrificial blood for us washing away all our sins (Acts 2:38) making us completely clean and a second chance on life.

Now, we have inside of us someone who can fill our spirit glass with overflowing love, truth (Jn 16:13), kindness, honor, protection, trust, hope, never failing (1 Cor. 13:4-8) us in filling our spirit’s glass with His life.

Start your new relationship with the real “Complete Partner” in this life and life to come. He takes away the “alone in a crowd” and makes the “abiding time” feel successful, and supports you when dealing with those who thinks “It is their world and you live in it“.

See Me

It is a very saddening experience when you feel like no one sees you. You know you have solid form like everyone else yet it seems like you are a ghost.  If they do by chance see you their opinion of you is not much higher than a stray dog or their facial expression has that looking down their noses on you. The worse of it all is living daily among other people as though you are not there. You get up feed yourself, get dressed for school or work, and walk into a people filled room with no one taking the time to speak kindly with you acknowledging your existence. You would not verbally admit it, but there is that longing inside for others to “See Me” the inside and not by the outside only.

Self-worth/esteem is a respect, a confidence, or a satisfaction opinion you have of yourself. Opinions exist in those on the outside observing you and on the inside with you judging yourself. You may be invisible to others or not worthy of their attention, but you are not invisible to yourself. Examine yourself with thought questions and answering them with raw truth. For example: the thought question “Am I good worker?” If your answer is ‘yes‘ then score one for the positive worth category and if ‘no‘ then put it in the how can I improve category. People will always judge you by the outward appearance first like an outside cover to a book without taking the time to see what is on the inside of the pages of the book, but as long as you are happy with the progress of inside your book your self-worth/esteem will be strong. If you are treated as a ghost keep being all you can be for there is someone more important than the people around you watching.

Our ghost world has hidden treasures that people daily miss out on. We have all kinds of things to give to those around us if they would only take the time and give us a chance. I agree there are some people who should never share themselves because of all the bitterness and hatred they have bottled up inside, but they too must find that someone who is more important than people and release the negativity accepting in its place the happiness they can possess in their life. A little side step from the path because all are worth seeing. It is a shame you are not stopped by someone and they receive from you the beautiful hidden treasure inside of you. You have hidden things inside your mind, heart, and soul that is invisible to everyone around you that all could be blessed by.

What intentions are hiding in your heart? What thoughts are you thinking inside your mind? What is really behind your eyes that look upon others? Does it really matter what is going on inside your mind, heart and soul invisible to the other people? They don’t hear your thoughts. They don’t see the intentions of your heart. They don’t know the true will of your soul. If it is out of sight and out of mind of others what does it really matter? Does anyone really care? “Why am I alone and a ghost to the world?”, you may ask. Now, is the time to turn on your hidden spirit from mankind and start reaching, feeling, and finding the one who is more important because He is closer than you think (Acts 17:27).

There is one who cares about your thoughts, intentions of your heart, and the desire of your soul. This particular one not only cares, but can see and read your thoughts clearly. He absolutely loves to extract your thoughts, intentions of your heart, and the desire of your soul out into the open exposing it for all to see including yourself. His thoughts, intentions of his heart, and the desire of His spirit is that everyone might know all the truth of themselves, others, and the mysteries of eternal life. When I read the Bible I am looking forward to what God is getting ready to extract from the hidden shadows below the surface of ghost like treasures in people’s flesh for all to see and learn from.

The amazing part about feeling invisible to others and like a ghost though you are solid like they are God chose a Jewish virgin girl with a fiancé of regular status among the people. Mary and Joseph were not well-known people. They were ordinary people like you and I working side by side as everyone else. God chose these two invisible people to the world to be the ones to take care of His fleshly body temple until that body grew to the age of the appointed ministry. Mary and Joseph may have been invisible to those around them seemingly average people, but hidden inside them was a worth that God saw. If you read John chapter 1 you will see a sad picture of people who did not really see Jesus/God and with all his good deeds was still not seen to be a good person. God Himself is treated like He does not exist. We are in good company.

Jesus like an outward cover to a book was seen outwardly as a Jew with his Jewish disciples were in a region of two towns. A woman of Canaanite nationality came to them, but would have been ignored by most like she was not even there. Some would have avoided her judging her to be a filthy stray dog. She went straight to Jesus crying out loud removing the veil of “I am not here” from those around her to “I am standing right here in front of you“. Remember there is one here that is more important than the people around her that see the hidden treasures of her heart. She said to Jesus, “Lord, Son of David, have mercy on me! My daughter is demon-possessed and suffering terribly.” Hidden inside this ignored woman of society was an understanding that Jesus was Lord and the Son of David fulfilling prophecy. Yet, Jesus remained quiet knowing what was hidden in the hearts around him.

His disciples revealed their hidden thoughts speaking up and saying, “Send her away, for she keeps crying out after us.” How many times do we encounter those who want to avoid us, ignore us, and hope we would keep walking by? We have seen them scatter as we approach them. They don’t want to hear us or talk to us. The disciples were under the Lord’s training and what was in their minds and hearts needed to be corrected. The woman was in the invisible hand of the Lord as a teaching tool for the disciples. He is extracting out of them the hidden things that are not only good for them, but also for the world to see.

After the disciples said, “Send her away, for she keeps crying out after us.” Jesus says to her, “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” This woman now has upon her shoulders “…send her away…” by the crowd and “…only…of Israel…“. The people’s opinion of her worth and by first outward appearance the Lord’s spoken worth of her challenges her of what should she do. Her reply was simply, “Lord, help me!” She did not refute sending her away or it was only to the lost sheep of Israel. The Lord wanted more from this unseen and ignored by the world Canaanite woman. Jesus reached one more time and said to her “It is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”

Her mind has the echoing words of “send her away“, “only Israel“, and now she is hearing she is categorized among the “dogs“. The disciples are standing there hearing what is being said as though Jesus was seeing her as they did putting her in her place. If you have never experienced being totally rejected the level of pain you feel in your heart cannot be explained by words only. She agreed with the Lord that it is not right to take the children’s bread from them. This Canaanite woman did not want to take from Israel even though by most she would be treated as a ghost passing in their midst. She did not want Jesus to stop his ministry. At this point the disciples may be thinking this woman understands that it is not right and will leave them alone. Then she continues saying to the Lord, “Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.” I can see the faces of the disciples when these words registered in their minds and hearts. This is what Jesus wanted to extract from this normally ignored Canaanite woman. She was not a dog to him, but her faith was wrapped with a humility the Lord deemed as greatness.

Wow, what was hidden inside this beautiful woman’s heart is now revealed. How many people around us could have this kind of hidden wisdom left unearthed? Though she was looked down upon, avoided, ignored, and was treated as a ghost by the world she continued inside herself with a respect, a confidence, and a satisfied rock solid belief in God. This is exactly what Jesus/God was looking for to be dug up, extracted, spoke aloud for all to hear. He said to her, “Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.” Her daughter was healed at that very moment when Jesus spoke those words. This Canaanite woman had in her heart Jesus is the Lord, the Son of David at the table feeding the children of Israel God’s bread with the ‘if she could at least get a crumb from that bread‘ attitude would be enough to fill her needs. Her crumb was a full meal to her. One small crumb to one is a full meal to another (Mtt. 15:22-28). It is enough no matter the size if it is from the Lord.

The disciples have been shown faith in the Lord has no separate nationality, color, or gender. They have been shown there is no one invisible and no one God will not take the time to help. They have been shown bottled up inside this woman was a faith as bright and as warm as the sun in the clear blue sky shining upon them. All doors are open unto the Lord. Would the disciples dare to stop anyone from seeing the Lord after hearing such words of faith? Would you want to miss out on someone like this?

She makes me thirst and hunger for that powerful hidden faith to burst forth and shine to the world. The hungry cry we have in our hearts for people to please “See Me” may go unnoticed by mankind, but there is a pair of eyes glowing with love towards the treasure of our hearts. Don’t give up being all you can be in the quietness of your world. Let your faith be a sweet-smelling aroma flowing up from your spirit to the Lord no matter if the world sees it or not. You are worth seeing in the eyes of the Lord, which is more important than all the acknowledgment the world could give you.

Meant to be Alone

Do you ever feel you were meant to be alone in this life?  Have you found yourself with another person, you and your spouse, you and four others, you and your family, you and your classmates, you and a crowd, you and your co-workers, you and your church, you and your team, you and no matter how many are around you – you are still alone? Did you try from middle school, to high school, to college, in the work world, in the church world, in the sports world, join clubs to make friends or at least come away with one friend? Have you stood there talking to others or hearing others talk and the emptiness of being alone is still present? Have you gone through the trial and errors of testing with more talking, less talking, more smiling, less smiling, showing more friendliness, being what you think others want you to be, purchasing things to appear as one of them, change your hair, change your clothes, change the way you laugh, change the words you speak, making yourself more available, adapting in any way you think it is possible, and doing anything within your power to be accepted and come away with at least one friend?

Even God desired to have someone. Before He created man God had no one like Himself. The angels and other creations were not like God. When God created man He created man (Adam) after His likeness and His image. God only had Adam that was close to his likeness. God had no one else to fellowship in the likeness of His own Spirit, except Adam. Then Adam in turn did not have anyone like him to fellowship matching his spirit. God was far above Adam’s spiritual level. Adam had no one that was like him. God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.” (Ge. 2:18). God brought all the animals to Adam to see what he would name them. At the end of naming the animals Adam and God saw no suitable helper was found among them (Ge. 2:20). God created a woman from Adam’s rib that would match him in the attempt to fix the being alone.

This was easy for Adam to find that someone to take away the loneliness. We today have almost a near impossible job to find someone to walk on their own carrying themselves with mannerisms like a kindred spirit matching ours to fill the loneliness with their fellowship in a oneness with us. People today call that a “soul mate”. Growing up in this day and time you may find yourself chasing the neighborhood kids wanting to play with them having them to run away. At school today you may hope someone in the classroom, gym class, clubs, and sports would accept you. You enter into high school meeting all kinds of users/players using anyone and everyone for their personal desires. In desiring to have that loneliness taken away you even tolerate the users in school. College or the work force you find even greater actors than Hollywood acting out parts for selfish ambitions and you are nothing but a stepping stone to them. It seems you are always on the outside looking in and even if you are on the inside you still feel the outside lonely feeling.

You go on with your life choosing to chase a career. In the chase you may even find someone else who has a secretive need unknown to you to have someone. You may even marry them and have a relationship with that person for decades going through the stages of having children, paying debts, and providing for the daily needs and still can be alone. Your spouse can be on a totally different page than you and you are on the farthest page from them. You may even find yourself being more of a caretaker than the true definition of oneness marriage. You can outwardly appear to be in the marriage doing all the things expected, but inwardly you can be starving to death for fellowship matching your spirit.

There are two kinds of loneliness. There is a physical loneliness and a spiritual loneliness. The physical loneliness does not necessarily only mean the absence of intimacy, but it can also include no physical fellowship (seeing a face showing reactions, hands…). The spiritual loneliness can be the absence of someone who can perceive and understand where your words are coming from and have the ability to challenge or add to your thoughts. Fellowship matching your spirit is where the loneliness will always be until you find another kindred spirit. Physical gratification can go a long way, but the truth of reality you are still lonely inside. Only the addiction of your body has been temporarily answered. All fleshly bodies change over time breaking down no matter how hard you fight the aging process, but the long-lasting effect comes from their spirit to yours. The physical body has the advantage of finding tons of other bodies starving for like manner loneliness, but the spiritual side has a harder task before it in finding matching spirits. Removing the curse of loneliness totally is having both physical and spiritual oneness.

God made Adam fall asleep and took a bone from his ribs. God took Adam’s rib bone and created another person in Adam’s likeness and image with matching parts for a oneness relationship. This was before sin and lust was in the eyes of mankind (Ge.2:25). Adam looked at her with the same naming eye sight he had for all the animals and spoke her place by his side and among all creation. He said, “This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called ‘woman,’ for she was taken out of man.” (Ge. 2:23). Adam had the first ministry of being God’s first-born and Eve had the ministry of the first-born from Adam. This event of woman for man became the reason and explanation of why a man leaves his father and mother to be united with his wife as one flesh (Ge. 2:24). This was locked in at the beginning of creation. It was God, Adam, and Eve oneness of fellowship. God had the oneness spirit fellowship with them both. Adam and Eve had the spiritual and physical oneness fellowship with each other and God. Loneliness came into being after mankind sinned against God creating a world of separation of all types.

In our present day the separation in its various forms has caused people to be players, users, and deceiving facades (outward appearances). Today is different finding that person, that friend, or friends in general. There is so much deception out there. It is extremely difficult to filter and find the ones you feel safe to open up and fellowship. The world is full of liars (tares) among the true (wheat) playing the acting game for all kinds of reasons. The sifting through them is a task that takes great powers of patience, intelligence, and God-given discernment.

The childhood, young adult, and adulthood in this day of con artists, liars, deceivers, and the fake facades may have driven you to hatred, distrust, and thick walls to all people, but there is a solution to the “Meant to be Alone” curse. As a child I had a father and a mother, an older sister, and an older brother. I count them to be a blessing because of the people I have met in life that had it far worse than I did, but the curse of “Meant to be Alone” was upon them as it was me. It was no fault of my family whatsoever for the “Meant to be Alone” curse on my life. I did not know we were poor. My father and mother worked really hard to make my life as rich as they could, but the true richness was their characteristics they lived before me. My father worked three jobs for our family that I was told later. I did not know why he was gone so much. My older sister is about twelve years older than me and had her life to live. My brother is about nine years older than me and he had his life to live.  My childhood was basically a few years of full family memories changing quickly to an only child. The “Meant to be Alone” curse is not based on if you had a family or your financial status in life. It is based upon finding that friend, spouse, or partner that truly connects with you from childhood to adulthood.

You may have the thick walls up guarding your heart, mind, and soul. I had my thick walls up guarding my heart, mind, and soul. The thing about having all these defensive devices in place you find yourself looking around inside hearing, feeling the empty halls of your heart, and the silence of your thoughts only. I did everything I could growing up to link with a best friend doing things I should not have done to gain their acceptance. I became bitter, cold, hateful, vengeful, and a user/player with darkness as my friend, but this is not the friend I sought after. It was the friend that came to me after the con artists, liars, deceivers; the outward facades had destroyed my faith in mankind.

Darkness could not satisfy that loneliness. After serving revenge on others with the lies, deceptions, and outward facades I did not find any satisfaction to chase away the loneliness. The hard questions began to seep through my thick walls like black thick syrup of ‘why should I exist‘ and ‘for what purpose or reason?’ It was during this crucial time sitting in furthest seat in the highest balcony in the dim-lit back pew a voice dropped over into my walls and into my throne room of heart, mind, and soul saying, “you had tried everything else why not try me?” I started going over a variety of things I had tried and coming to the conclusion I agreed that I will give you a try.

The “Meant to be Alone” curse can be taken away. I started my infant steps with God. I treated Him as I would anyone else. I will try to get to know Him. I started reading His Word/Bible from the point of view of questions I had about life. I started looking up hatred, jealousy, bitterness, dating, marriage, friendship, loneliness, anger, and the list goes on. I have uploaded pictures that I drew before trying God and after trying God. The pictures have hidden messages of emotions I was facing at the time. As I kept talking with Him and reading His opinions I woke up one day realizing I had found the friend that will never leave me. He will never back stab me, lie to me, use me, con me, or forsake me. He became my best friend and roommate behind my thick walls. I will never be alone again spiritually. Yes, I still have my walls up because mankind has not changed, but my fleshly house has a new occupant that will always lead me and guide me into all truth.

Adam was alone inside having only his living soul. Eve was alone inside having only her living soul. They had each other physically and spiritual fellowship. We are not like Adam today. We have our living soul inside, but God can move inside with us. Your body now can be the apartment with God as your roommate. It doesn’t matter if you are physically alone even in a crowd, marriage, church, school, or anything else you may think of people being there with you because spiritually you have the roommate of forever kindness, love, acceptance, friendship, saving grace. My life has never been the same since Jesus became my roommate.

All I had to do was to turn my back ( be sorry) on darkness/sin, get baptized in water baptism in the name of Jesus (applies the blood of Calvary) for the washing away of my sins (cleaning my house & spirit), and receiving His Holy Spirit inside with mine (Acts 2:38, 4). I may never have the fellowship of mankind, but I will always have the fellowship of God from this life into the next. It is joy unspeakable and full of glory beyond the brightness of our sun in space. Seek after Him and you will never be sorry or lonely ever again.