Category: Hidden in Plain Sight

Born in Prison

I was born in prison. As any other child before reaching the age of perceiving and understanding reality life was normal to me. My parent’s crime carried the death penalty without the option of parole. The country they committed this crime passes the judgment to all family members without any possible change to the sentence. I was not only born in prison, but I was born on death row. The phase of being a baby, to a child, and a little older the understanding of the situation was still not understood. Prison was not seen as a prison right under my nose.

It is hard to see something as a prison when it is all you have ever known. It is in plain sight, but goes unnoticed because you were born into it. Adapting is what we all do in this life. We adapt and work with what is handed to us from the good to the bad. As in all prison life there are those hated, loved, favored, ignored, and drama. We all have our scars, good and bad memories. What else can we do it is prison and out of our control. All we can do is wake up and repeat doing our best.

Before my parents committed their crime they carried full authority over all the country given to them by the original creator that made the country what it was. They had complete control over all things with the exception of one tiny area. The one area was off-limits per the country creator’s law. He told my dad before he was married to my mom that violating and breaking this one rule in this one area carries the death penalty, but the rest of the country he could do as he pleases. It was all his and whatever he did affected the entire country.

The original creator of the country thought so highly of my dad he passed ownership of the entire country into his hands with the one set rule still in place of the contract. The original creator still maintained absolute power overseeing all, but my dad and mom had complete freedom. He would visit with my dad and have him to name some of his products and whatever dad wanted to call them that is what they were to be called. He watched my dad and felt sorry for him being alone. He even arranged the meeting of mom to my dad. He loved my dad and mom as his own children with complete trust in their free decisions.

I am not sure if my mom and dad knew about a previous person the original creator entrusted a great deal of his assets and what happened. This previous person had almost the same setup as my parents, but in a different country. This person had great power, was not satisfied, became greedy and wanted to overthrow the original creator of his country, which had a death penalty attached to it. This person committed a crime against the original creator invoking the death penalty upon himself and all the ones he convinced into his overthrowing plot. This previous person was locked away in that tiny area dad was warned about not to get involved or the death penalty would be passed onto him.

One day mom and dad passed by this tiny area. The previous person with death upon him started talking to my mom from the danger zone using his smooth words enticing her with false treasures to be gained if she would violate the one law. He convinced her enough to start looking into this off-limits area and seeing what was an evil product of death as good to try for the gaining of knowledge equal or higher to the original creator. She took the forbidden product from the restricted area into her hands swallowing the poisonous lies into her body. She then turned to my dad and handed him the same forbidden product of which he too swallowed the death penalty inside of himself.

They both were instantly changed. The good, innocent, clean, clear, happy, and care free life they had before changed into complete shame of who they were the rest that comes with darkness. The original creator came by for a visit as he did before to see them and they were nowhere in sight. He started calling out their names to find them hiding from him. They told him the complete story of the why and what happened. The original creator though he loved them the law was locked into place and he passed the sentence upon each one of them from the previous person, mom, and then dad. The original creator loved mom and dad so much he could not change the death penalty they were going to die, but he could add to it. He added a single payment of death for the whole debt that only could be paid by a special circumstance. It would not stop death, but it would allow an escape when death strikes.

The prison sentence of death was now in effect to all. Mom and dad started to have children, and generations began to follow populating the country. I did not realize being born that I was in a prison on death row. After growing older the wisdom and understanding has stepped in to explain. I have the sentence of death on me and it cannot be changed.

My mom and dad are our ancestor parents of all of mankind, Adam and Eve. The death sentence of sin came into our world through one man, our dad Adam, and death came to all of us at birth (Ro. 5:12). We are all born in prison. Prison is something you and I think of as a building with bar windows and doors specifically built for those who commit crimes with different levels of punishment. These prison buildings is what the generations of people after our parents have tried to separate the above normal violent from the rest of us, but this is not the prison I am speaking about.

There is a prison not made of the hands of man with block walls, barb-wired fences, bar windows, and doors. When we are born into our baby formed fleshly bodies we are born with the inherited crime of our parents with the clock of time ticking towards death. All of us are born to die. It does not matter if you live a righteous, wicked, good, clean, unclean, sacrificial giving, selfish, sinner, swearing, or non-committing life there is an evil among all things that is done under the sun in which we live that happens one event to all of us – our bodies will die releasing our spirit. Our prison of death is our physical fleshly bodies. All bodies with talents of containing the fastest, the strongest, the wisest, the richest, and the most skillful will die (Eccl. 9:1-5). Our body is the prison to our spirit and when it dies our spirit will return to the original creator (Eccl. 12:7) for a judgment of eternity (Heb. 9:27).

Every day a prisoner wakes up in his cell makes a decision on what he will do that day in his cell. He determines what he is going to do that day for the things coming his way. We may not be behind the physical block walls and cells of a physical building prison serving our time, but we are in a fleshly prison cell. We wake up every day in our fleshly body cell making decisions on what we will do that day. We determine what we are going to do that day for the things coming our way, yet time is ticking closer to the day we know not the death sentence will come upon us.

I know this has the gloominess and darkness about it, but this is facing reality that we all will have our bodies we contained in to die. We all have loved ones, friends, acquaintances, and strangers whose bodies have died in our lives. We have stood over them seeing their body empty of their personality. Our minds think they could speak and get up at any moment, but they do neither. They have finished serving their time and have been released from their fleshly prison cell body. This is where the possible escape clause can be applied to our spirit after the body dies.

In the physical block buildings prisoners live everyday carefully in what they say and do because their actions will determine their path in life. This life in our fleshly prison cell must be lived carefully for the saving of our true self. We are looking out through the bars of our prison, listening through the bars of our prison, tasting things through the bar of our prison, smelling life through the bar of our prison, and touching life through our bars of prison storing our actions into our spirit on the inside our prison cell the good, the bad, and the ugly things of our everyday prison life. We are all, the people of our ancestor parents of Adam and Eve, are destined to die once in our bodies and after that to face judgment of our spirit with the possible eternal prison of a never-ending torturing death or a never-ending of freedom of life (Heb. 9:27).

A WAY OF ESCAPE

The original creator activated his love for us clause to allow a way of escape for our ancestor mom, dad, and all of us born after them with their death sentence upon them. The original creator came into our world by the same fleshly way we are all born into this world. The difference from his birth and ours was he made his own fleshly cell free from sin crime committed by our ancestor mom and dad inside a virgin girl, but with the same countdown to death in his flesh. He was also born into a fleshly prison cell on death row of this world like us.

Just like any other prisoner he woke up everyday making decisions on what he was going to do that day inside his fleshly prison cell. His mission was set on completing the clause of escape for us to be redeemed with a choice after death strikes our fleshly bodies. He wanted to create another body for us. This is an exchange of a prison body of death for a temple of life for us (2 Cor. 5:1).

He walked among us in his flesh prison cell of death, but with the spirit of life inside it. He faced all of our temptations overcoming them every day. He faced our different emotional sins with answers of life. He walked among our prisons filled with lies speaking words of spirit and life. He was confronted by the previous person and his followers commanding them to get out of his way. He touched our fleshly prison cells of diseased torment with healings. He fed us when we were starving. He stood up for us in front of other prisoners making them walk away from hurting us with his words of conviction, compassion, and forgiveness. He even returned one of us back to this world for a little longer after death struck the body down releasing the spirit back to God, himself.

The final phase of completing the intervening clause for our sake was to pay to death penalty passed onto all of us from our ancestor parents. One night he allowed the other prisoners to take him into their prison cell leaders. They chained him, beat him, spit on him, and pulled his beard. The prison cell leaders took him up to the head prisoner to have him officially killed. They took him into a room to beat him forty times with a whip with nine leather straps with sharp things sown into them. They wrapped his bleeding body with a robe and a crown of thorns mocking him as the king just like in the day dad and mom were the king and queen of this world. They took him out to a hill inside the prison yard and nailed his hands and feet to a wooden cross. They raised him up for every other prisoner to see him. His body with ripped skin, a nail driven through his fleshly prison cell hands and feet with a crown of thorns smashed upon his head his said before death struck his body to forgive us because we do not know what we are truly doing. His final words sealed the completeness of the clause for us when he said, “It is finished” and his fleshly prison cell body died releasing his sin free spirit (2 Cor. 5:21).

He returned to his body that was laid in a tomb converting it from a fleshly prison of death into a temple of light and life. He created the only body that contains our spirit after leaving the fleshly body as the vehicle to life eternal. If we leave this world without his body he created for us our spirit will unprotected from being sent to the eternal place of torture. He created a way of escape for you and me from these bodies of death we were born into. For us to serve our time in our fleshly prison cell of going to die bodies we can escape the final prison for our spirit. He did not stop our bodies from dying in this world. The clause was not to stop death for it must be paid separating them from sinful flesh, but our spirit can be saved from the prison cell and placed into a temple of life forever.

I hope you can see the real eternal you is a prisoner of your fleshly body. If you have lived long enough you have seen, given, or experienced the sexual immorality in this fleshly prison. You have seen, given, or experienced firsthand hatred, jealousy, fits of rage, selfishness, drunkenness, lovers of themselves, pride, abusiveness, ungratefulness, slanderous, no self-control, deceivers, and even those having a form of godliness covering their dark intentions. Some of these names of other prisoners popped up in my head and some even matched me before I accepted the escape clause contract with God.

SALVATION CONTRACT

For our spirit to escape after this fleshly prison cell faces death we have to follow the steps Jesus, the original creator, provided for us to walk out of prison a free man (mankind). Our one ancestor dad brought death to us all and one man brought life to us all if we want it. We don’t have to die like Jesus, but just go through the steps of applying what he done into our lives to place the seal of the escape clause on us. He first lived his prison cell life here with his back turned against the sinful flesh. We will need to repent and turn our backs on the sins in our lives from our fleshly prison cell. He died on the cross for us and was buried. For us to apply his death on us we need to be baptized fully submerged under water like a burial service in his name, Jesus, applying his blood to forgive and wash us clean of all sins. He lived this life with the Spirit of God inside of him guiding him and showing him how to live this life the right way Acts 2:38. We must receive his spirit with the acknowledgment of speaking in a language we have not learned (Acts 2:4-11) as he gives it to us as a sign we have literally received his Spirit that man cannot give.

He is our substitute when death strikes our bodies he steps in to catch our spirit being release wrapping it and clothing it with a body like his of light and life bypassing death, hell, and the grave. The only reason this can happen is because these are the steps he went through in our place paving the way, the truth, and the life to the Father (the original creator). After Jesus paid the death price he descended where there were others in captivity and set them free taking them with him into the heavens. He created the escape route to bypass these horrible places after death, but by only following his footsteps.

EXCELLENT READING:

Eph. 4:1 As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received.2 Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.3 Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.4 There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called;5 one Lord, one faith, one baptism;6 one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.7 But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it.8 This is why it says: “When he ascended on high, he took many captives and gave gifts to his people.”9 (What does “he ascended” mean except that he also descended to the lower, earthly regions ?10 He who descended is the very one who ascended higher than all the heavens, in order to fill the whole universe.)11 So Christ himself gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the pastors and teachers,12 to equip his people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up13 until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.14 Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of people in their deceitful scheming.15 Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will grow to become in every respect the mature body of him who is the head, that is, Christ.16 From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.17 So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking.18 They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts.19 Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, and they are full of greed.20 That, however, is not the way of life you learned21 when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus.22 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires;23 to be made new in the attitude of your minds;24 and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.25 Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to your neighbor, for we are all members of one body.26 “In your anger do not sin” : Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,27 and do not give the devil a foothold.28 Anyone who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with their own hands, that they may have something to share with those in need.29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.30 And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption.31 Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.32 Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

2 Cor. 5:1 For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.2 Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling,3 because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked.4 For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life.5 Now the one who has fashioned us for this very purpose is God, who has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.6 Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord.7 For we live by faith, not by sight.8 We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord.9 So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it.10 For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each of us may receive what is due us for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad.11 Since, then, we know what it is to fear the Lord, we try to persuade others. What we are is plain to God, and I hope it is also plain to your conscience.12 We are not trying to commend ourselves to you again, but are giving you an opportunity to take pride in us, so that you can answer those who take pride in what is seen rather than in what is in the heart.13 If we are “out of our mind,” as some say, it is for God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you.14 For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died.15 And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.16 So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer.17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!18 All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation:19 that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation.20 We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God.21 God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

I Want To Die

Hi! I am glad you stopped by to read “I Want To Die“.  This is something that has crossed everyone’s mind sometime in their life. You are not alone. For some the thought of death was a flash and for others it became a returning subject to think about. To die has a closure and an ending sound to it and to live has an ongoing never-ending sound to it. One of them implies freedom and the other implies torture. I am glad you are here, now reading this because I don’t want you to be deceived anymore.

I was deceived and I don’t want you to make a decision based on lies. Death has many people thinking that this is an ending to all the things they are facing. As you read these words they are passing through the physical tunnel of your eyes into your eternal spirit inside your body. This is the real you no matter what you look like on the outside. Your eyes are only a temporary tunnel of sight to your eternal spirit behind them. This is the time to find the real you. Here comes one factual truth that your body is the only fleshly shell that can die everything else about you will remain forever. I hope this is not disappointing, but the real you will exist forever. A good question to ask at this time is do “I Want To Die” right now taking with me the bad things inside with me forever or do I want to find a way to make the bad things die and I live on free? The real you that is focused on these words will not die. I know and see my spirit is speaking to your spirit through these words, but a greater than both of us is here between us. He is the one that gave us our eternal spirits. He wanted me to know and you that death will only come to the body that is housing us. Your body will return to the dust of the earth eventually, but you – your spirit will continue forever in the state you left this world for better or worse.

Your spirit can face a type of death matching it as an eternal death, but it is more like a still living/existing death because you, your spirit is made of eternal substance and does not cease to exist like the body. Your spirit that will never die is being fed right now through your eyes and other senses. Your skin feeds your spirit the feelings of touching things or things touching you. Your ears captures the sounds around you feeding them to your spirit. Your mouth feeds your spirit the different tastes that enter it. Your nose is the tunnel funneling the different odors it smells to your spirit. Your spirit is the eternal storage of you. You are a living eternal spirit book that will always contain who you are inside of it (Ps. 40:7, Heb. 10:7 examples).

This may be a time to slow down and think about what is written on the pages of your spirit book ignoring for now your physical body. I know your spirit is full of things forced upon your pages by the things out of your control and some things you purposely did in life causing them to be recorded in you whether good or bad. I want you to know you are in control of your spiritual book. You do have the power to decide how things are written inside of you and the way they are to be understood. Your spirit is diary with easily called upon memories of pictures, videos, sounds, and words from the earliest time to the present of things you have collected. You can be the narrator of your own life or outside influences can plant their desires like a puppet on their string of what they want to see you do. “I Want To Die” is not the desire you were first-born with, but later on things of this life push it upon you.

Death in this world will only disconnect you from the earth, which may seem to be enough, but it will not disconnect your spirit from the spirit world. You will still exist forever with what you did here still inside you – your works and others. Even though you are in spirit form after leaving this world you will still see, hear, talk, feel, taste, and touch directly to your eternal (unchangeable) spirit. Your body is the temporary vehicle of this world by which your eternal spirit absorbs the data from. You and I see everyday how the bodies are temporary from the young to the growing older. I have seen in the elderly the young fire of their spirit behind their aging eyes longing to get out and do the things they once did when they were young. Your spirit is the eternal vehicle to God’s realm, but only when released by death to the physical body or when He comes a second time to this earth to gather us home.

DIFFERENT STAGES OF DEATH

You may still feel like death is the answer to be finally rid of this world. It will pass you from this world sending you to the next, but you will be taking what is in you with you in the present with no second chances of release. There are two different kinds of deaths you and I will face. Your fleshly body can physically die returning to the earth ceasing to exist in time, but your spirit is released into the spirit world where there is no time going straight to the place your spirit fits. Your body will cease to exist like ashes blown out of sight by the wind, but your spirit, the real you, will fly towards the eternal place that matches the condition of your spirit when you left this world. Do “I Want To Die” taking with me want is inside me right now? You will take this world with you stored inside your unchanged spirit into the spirit world. Your solid existence will now be in your spirit there will be no longer a need of accumulating anything from seeing, hearing, feeling, tasting, and smelling directly anymore for you are now eternally unchangeable like the angels. You will still be you without your earthly body.

You can decide right now to stop others from writing and influencing things written in your book of your spirit life. The world can do things to your body, but you have the power to lock your mind, heart, and soul on the inside to be what you want it to be. You are a child of God and you have His power to make free will choices no matter the level of evil against you. In the Bible there is a remarkable passage about a man who somehow allowed a legion of evil things to enter into the pages taking over the control of his spirit book inside him. It was clear to me he did not want to die in the present state he was in with those evil spirits. No matter how much they pushed him day and night to cut himself he would still not give into “I Want To Die“. When Jesus with God on the inside came near to him the tormented man made the choice to take his body full of those legions of evil spirits to face Almighty God. The man forced the things of this world to let go of his spiritual pen and gained the freedom to start writing in his own desires in his spirit book (Mark 5:6-13). I want you to read this passage yourself with your own spiritual eyes drinking in how you can live above the thoughts of “I Want To Die“. Allow the loneliness to be chased away.

This second death is not a ceasing to exist death, a going to sleep no consciousness, but a death of separation. We have experienced a death of separation from loved ones, pets, or other things in this life feeling the pain of sorrow and loss. This is as close to touching with understanding the second death of our spirit while still in this world. If you experience the second death you, your spirit, will be separated into a place that is considered to be death forever. The body is like a pencil that can be erased and your spirit is like a permanent magic marker that cannot be erased. The hurt, pain, sorrow, tears, and torment will be in your spirit which is eternal making the separation of suffering eternal in you (Lu. 16:23-31). This is the second death of separation and not a ceasing of existence or a sleep of no consciousness. You will be still alive never to sleep again, but you are separated to another eternal place worse than this temporary world you left. The bad things, the evil things, and horrors of this earth has no comparison to living eternally with the evil in the second death.

This earth is temporary and you can still fight for change, but the second death of the spirit is already a lost battle with no more chances to fight for change. What you have stored inside you now that makes you want to die is in a temporary phase. You do have a chance. Your flesh is trying to convince your spirit there is no way out other than dying. It is time for you to take hold of that which is inside you pulling it out of your book of your life and make it dead to your spirit, but you cannot do it alone completely.

You want to turn off the things inside your mind. You want them to go away. You want them to stop tormenting you. You just want some peace. You have tried drinking them away, but finding the fix is only temporary. The troubles are there waiting for you when the drinking has worn off. You are back to wishing for it to go away with the physical pains of the aftermath of drinking. Your frustration is now twice as much on your shoulders. You’re thinking if I could only stay drunk it would never return to torture me, but the money is not there to maintain that solution. The nowhere to go feeling opens the door to “I want to Die“.

The liquid of relaxation and other things that flows into your body is a feeling of a fix, but it is only a blanket pulled over your spirit hiding from your sight what is still there. The problems seem to go far away, but to return to the foot of your bed or in your front door. Your flesh was the intoxicated blanket and your spirit was the hiding child underneath. We have these adult like bodies carrying a spirit child inside them with a need of a more permanent fix. This is where death becomes a salesman selling the lies of a permanent solution or the only way out. Most do not want to admit it, but our child like spirit is desperate for pure true love beyond this world to engulf us that we can trust whole heartily.

How can I make it stop? I don’t feel like I have the ability to make it stop. I feel like I am totally surrounded with nowhere to go and with no one to turn to. No one sees my pain and suffering. They can only see my outside and when I try to share what is on the inside they don’t care. There is nothing, no one, no where that can help me. These are just a few things that gather around us, locking hands, and trying to block our view past them. I will agree with you. We all need more than ourselves and others to help us overcome the “I Want To Die” feeling. Somebody please help me.

The man I mentioned earlier whose spirit was surrounded by bad spirits voicing their desires all around him did the one thing that we all can do. They were polluting his soul. If we can get ourselves to the feet of Jesus. He is that someone greater than ourselves and others to help us overcome the  “I Want To Die” thoughts and feelings. The man could not personally handle those evil spirits just like we feel overwhelmed, but he did not have to handle them by himself. He ran his body full of those dark evil thoughts and spirits down to the feet of Jesus who was full of God as God handled, Spirit to spirits, the sweet releasing freedom from the grip of darkness.

That is great for him, but how do I get to the feet of Jesus he is in heaven? Start speaking his name, Jesus, and pouring out what is written on your pages of your spirit to him. If you go after him like that man you will start to feel his presences fill the air about you. You will feel a powerful goose bump presences of light flowing over you and embracing you. Take all those bad things in your spirit book and tell him you don’t want to have anything to do with them anymore in the pages of your life. What you are doing is taking back your spirit book from the “I Want To Die” into your hands, turning around with it, and handing it to Jesus to help start writing good things in a new chapter of your life. This is the first step of your freedom. While you are saying his name, Jesus, and his presences is upon you, go past the first step of surrendering your body into surrendering your spirit to him. This is the power we all need on the inside to overcome the things on the outside removing the being alone and the relying on of others. Seeking Him first and His kingdom all these other things will be added unto you (Mtt. 6:33). You are headed towards the second birth that will save you from the second death while aiding you along through this life.

You and I need the right power inside of us to overcome and not be so dependent on others. The man had the legion of evil spirits trying to hold him hostage to their power. Jesus, the man, had the fullness of God in him bodily (Col. 2:9) showing him the free choices of the things in this life that he could choose. We all stand in this doorway of either having the voices of this world telling us what to do or we have God as our roommate showing us the right way. Don’t be alone with the wrong things talking into your ears. What do you have inside of you right now at this moment?

I called out to him, Jesus. I handed him my spirit book of eternal pages that could only be erased by his eternal Spirit because there is no power outside of him that can fix our spirit book inside of us. The world cannot erase it for it is written on eternal pages of a spirit. The devil cannot erase it because he is not the Creator, but a creation. I cannot erase it because I, too am just a creation and not God. I told him about those pages of torment and sins in my life repenting of never wanting to have anything to do with them again. He took my repentance and my spirit book into himself, erasing them with His blood through his name in water baptism (Acts 2:38). I surrendered in complete trust my spirit feeling him all over me then going inside of me deep into where my spirit was with a joy unspeakable embracing my heart, flowing upward and outward with His Spirit speaking the joy and praises in another language I did not learn helping me to express the fullness of His glory that the flesh of man cannot express, but by His Spirit.

Now, the “I Want To Die” is under the right understanding and the right control. Death from this life is still going to happen, but under the right control and the right timing with God inside. No longer do the voices of this world have the power to push you to die in a sinful condition that the second death of your spirit will send you to the eternal place of torment, but you can have a life that when you do die you go past the second death’s door straight into eternal Life’s door. Take back what rightfully belongs to you.

“I” still “Want To Die“, but to die the right death. You mean there is a right death as opposed to a wrong death? Yes, there is a right and wrong death. The wrong death is what we spoke of earlier dying with our spirit book full of bad and evil things. The right death is dying daily to those wrong things that want to enter into our spirit book after we have been born again. Our eternal pages of sin were erased by the blood eraser of Jesus Christ and He gave us His Spirit to guide us into all truth writing our eternal pages with the right things.

This is what I want you to be able to say with the authority of God backing you. “I Want To Die” the right death no longer living this life with my own or this world’s understandings, but by Jesus Christ who lives inside of me. The life that I now live in this body, I want to live by the faith, power, and guidance of Jesus Christ, who loved me and gave himself for me (Gal. 2:20, Ro. 8:14).

I, now, know that “I Want To Die” so that Jesus might live in me for I know when He lives in me the things written into my eternal pages has the greatest editor filtering the lies and deceptions of this world and the spirits that dwells in it. May you have the light of God inside your eyes and ears of your spirit leading you and guiding you with a story that all of heaven will long to hear.

 

Nobody Knows

There is no human being in the past, present, or future that knows in one hundred percent details of what is going on deep down inside your mind, heart, and soul except for one who is no longer here physically. Right now as you are reading these words sitting in a chair, laying on the bed, waiting for the bus to arrive, or at the kitchen table only you know the thoughts and feelings you are having at this moment. If there are people around you your thoughts and feeling are not being broadcast for anyone and everyone to see.

If you should even attempt to concentrate to broadcast your thoughts and feelings they will still go unnoticed and unheard. How many times have you stared into someone’s face while they are talking and the thoughts you are having would get you into trouble if they were broadcast out loud instantly? Most people rely upon body language to try to see inside others practicing a guessing game at what thoughts and feelings you are having, but never truly seeing one hundred percent details of your mind, heart, and soul.

The brother or sister you fought with growing up hearing you say, “I hate you” did not truly see the entire inside your mind and heart. The words could have been spoken because they were leaving you behind and the intention was just one more time give me some last-minute attention before you go, instead of “I hate you” and “I wish you would die” intentions. They did not see the broken heart and the inside tears dripping from the thoughts you are leaving me all alone. They did not see the hole that pulled away from your heart as they walked away. The reality of how much they were a part of the love in your heart surprises even yourself increasing the sorrow of “I did not realize until now” they are leaving. Nobody sees the engulfing defeating pain of “It is too late now” and “there is no second chance“. They only see the outside of facial and body language with no clue to the depth of suffering occurring right before their eyes hidden inside of you. Your spirit is not broadcasting one hundred percent of what is truly going on the inside of your body only the outward physical actions are dropping hints.

A great majority of people don’t even see with understanding the outward hints of the facial or physical clues. On top of that a great majority of people just don’t care, which is one of the saddest things on earth. There is a beauty to seeing and connecting to the inward parts of a person that go beyond descriptive words anyone could ever speak outwardly. There is a world inside each person that has mountains, valleys, rivers, slums, cities, towns, schools, jails, court rooms, execution rooms, happy places, war-torn zones, tombstones, sunrise, sunsets, rain, snow, teddy bears, snakes, horses, dogs, cats, birds, lakes, oceans, caves, and many more things.

Night has come and everyone has done their routine before bed as you lay down and the lights go out. Nobody knows as you silently lay there on your pillow the small trickling thoughts start flowing down your little creek bed as the water increases to overflowing your banks, out your eyes, down your check silently dripping and soaking into your pillow in the covered darkness of night. Even if you have someone beside you there is no broadcasting out loud the pain and suffering you are silently enduring. The bombing thoughts of something you love that is going away explodes all around you feeling powerless to stop the bombs falling from the sky. In the silence of the night inside your mind and heart an entire war can be erupting with a deafening sound to a hearing ear the horrific sites you see and “Nobody knows“. You lay there in a fox hole hoping the morning when and if you wake up to everything will be changed.

Inside your mind, heart, and spirit is an unlimited world that ‘Nobody knows‘ truly exists. Your body walks by the cubicles at work, the doorways, through the warehouse, down the assembly lines, or the saw-tables with every person absent-minded of the spirit of suffering inside. They see an outward smile you have practiced and hear words of greetings you have perfected, but the dying lonely spirit inside goes unseen and unheard.

As you walk with one foot falling out front with the other foot swinging into place in front of the other creating a forward motion for the body while the mind is frozen into place with heart pounding shock. The thoughts will not come for the numbness has them locked up. The pressure from deep down below begins to push its way upward as they reach the outlet at the top spilling out over the bottom eye lid. To the outside world water flows downhill naturally, but the hidden inward world of a hurting soul the water flows upward pushing up, out, and then down onto the cheek beside the nose to the chin dripping its brokenness. Who can truly see inside the house of flesh the details for the reason of suffering? Who truly cares to know in all purity of intentions? You body begins to stumble as you walk being a reflection to the staggering soul within. You want to help them so bad, but there are no ideas only emptiness with tormenting sorrow for the nothingness that can be done. Everything around you is totally oblivious to what is happening on the inside and you find yourself in place wondering ‘how did I get here?‘

Everyone leaves the house hearing the last person shut the door “Nobody Knows” your back leans against the wall sliding down to sitting on the floor as your arms prop onto your knees with your hands catching your face with streaming tears pouring into your hands as a deep mourning cry begins to burst forth with an utterance and a language that cannot be translated. You fall forward crawling towards the bed, couch, or chair dripping the tears of heartache and wishes. You dedicated many years of your life to saving that someone finding with all your efforts, sacrifices, and denying of personal happiness they walk away from you straight into the fire you wished to save and protect them from the burning pain. The wall holds no record broadcasting the memory of your sorrow. The floor, bed, couch, or chair does not highlight or glow the dripping spots of your tears to the evidence of your hidden tormenting brokenness.

Inside your body there is a gathering around your heart “Nobody Knows“. They have come together to crush your spirit with the past, present, and the future. Loneliness joins hands with powerlessness, powerlessness locks hands with sadness, sadness joins regret-fullness,  regret-fullness joins with unfulfilled, unfulfilled with emptiness, nowhere to go and no answer in sight closes the circle around your heart starting the squeezing pressure of no tomorrow for you. ‘Why doesn’t someone truly see me?’, ‘Why does no one come to my help?’, ‘Why, am I so invisible?’

I am lonely with a loneliness physical gratification is not enough. The relationships that started quickly, a dream come true, a long time coming, too good to be true, played, and got together for the wrong reasons plagues the memories of a soul is something “Nobody Knows” the deep scars left inside the hidden spirit under our flesh. The physical plays only a band-aid part, but not the completeness of the cure. There is a hunger and thirst that goes far beyond the limits of this lonely house of flesh we live in.

Your spirit is inside your house of flesh. No one can truly look in through your windows seeing one hundred percent in details what your spirit is doing, thinking, or feeling on the inside. You can be shoulder to shoulder at a concert with someone thinking of dying inches away from your spirit and you would never know it. They could be sitting in the chair next to you with a broken heart of despair and you would never know it. They can be a well-known person in the public’s eye with a spirit of detrimental loneliness that you would never know. They can be handsome, beautiful, pretty, short, tall, and ugly by the world’s outward judgments, but inside “Nobody Knows” the true positive or negative form. They can be presidents, secretaries, doctors, lawyers, cashiers, nurses, carpenters, farmers, technologist, pastors, priests, choir members, coaches, husbands wives, roommates you see every day and yet “Nobody Knows” the suffering of their souls.

What do you live for? What is it you get up every morning to live for? What keeps you going on the outside though your insides are broken and torn? What holds you together? Do you think you will ever find complete happiness? Will the morning come that you wake up and all will be as you have dreamed it would be?

If deep down your answers to the above questions have a short coming to your expectations what can you do about it? Powerlessness may step up and say, ‘I cannot change others and the world I have tried them and on me‘. You are looking on the outside. Trusting people to be the hero that saves you at the end of the day is the fantasy you wish to see, but only fulfilled on make-believe shows. People will fail us because it is in all of our natures. Today you will not find many in this world that can walk by you and see the real you, stopping in the crowd, turning to you, and inviting you to eat with them (Lu. 19:2-6). You will not find someone who purposely goes out of their way to a spot you visit everyday just to meet you, talk to you, and try to help you (Jn. 4:4-42). You will not find many who will see through others trying to do you harm for their own selfish reasons using you, stand up for you, pointing the twisting of the law back at them, and after they leave offer you a hand up to go free because neither do they condemn you (Jn. 8:2-11). You will not find many in this world to accept you as you are and still want to keep company with you (Mtt. 9:10-13).

If finding that someone on the outside falls short what about doing something about the inside? Can you find something that will work on the inside that nobody on the outside could ever reach? We all at one point or another seek a physical existing partnership of someone who truly sees us with complete understanding and hears us with complete perception (they get us). Finding someone at your level of thinking, morals, and desires in completeness is almost near to zero chances. You may get close to finding that someone, but the majority of the world simply adapts to their situation with the outward facial/body expressions and rehearsed words of conversations. Another percentage of the world gives up and turns to substances that provide physical escapes through their flesh pushing those highs and lows upon their spirits.

You have a spirit door that leads to the inside of your body. You can open your spirit door and allow a roommate to move into the place where “Nobody Knows” the real you. As with all things you must be careful who you open your spirit door to. People cannot become one with your inside spirit literally. They can live with you with their physical body beside your physical body, but they will still not live inside your body where the real you hurts in the night-time crying tears silently into your pillow as they sleep. They may get accustomed your habits mimicking a oneness with your spirit, but still clueless to the details of your spirit. What we are looking for is beyond what this world can offer.

There are spiritual roommates that can live inside with us. I had many encounters of different kinds of spirit roommates. Some spirits wanted to live in a drug world, alcohol world, sexual world, players world, money world, power world, and many other types of worlds, but the conclusion of all of these pointed to one hundred percent satisfying the physical flesh side and leaving the spirit side to be thrown away and forgotten. I found one Spirit that did not push satisfying the flesh. The flesh is what everyone else sees and ignores the suffering of the spirit within. This one Spirit loved and adored the hidden spirit within that “Nobody Knows” or cares about other than to use it for their own gain. I started my research seeking this one Spirit. I found Him helping others no matter their status quo in life, outward beauty meant nothing to Him, and He willingly helped without demanding payment. I challenged Him with questions of the heart about love, hate, marriage, kindness, revenge, death, life, loneliness, sorrow, and whatever else came my way. I started to trust His answers because the results helped me sleep at night, wake up the next day happy, and pass through the day even when people did not care.

As time passed by I felt He was the Spirit roommate I wanted inside with mine automatically.  One day someone said some challenging things about my Spirit friend and His word. Of course, I nodded and smiled while inside I was thinking I will go home and see for myself if what they said holds true to what my Spirit roommate says. He said my friend was the same yesterday, today, and forever, which I found in Hebrews 13:8. I said to myself and my Spirit Friend ‘OK, that is true because it is in Your word and not twisted.‘ They told me that no one in the entire Bible was ever baptized in the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. This was still the same conversation that I had nodded and smiled. I found in Matthew 28:19 is where my Spirit friend had said, “Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you:..” OK, this was true what He said to His disciples of that day in the past, but now it was onto researching where they baptized people. I kept going because my Spirit friend was the most important friend of all because He knew exactly what I was suffering on the inside while the rest of the world turned away. I researched using all kinds of tools to find water baptism in the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit. Again, I found what they told me was true that no one in the entire Bible record was baptized in the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit, but I did find several Bible recorded water baptisms in the name of Jesus Christ. This made me go “Hmm”. My best Spirit friend in His word only baptized in His name for the reason of applying His blood to wash away my sins, which made sense to me because you cannot kill the Father or the Holy Spirit. I only agreed with this because it completely matched my Spirit friend Jesus and I trusted Him more than people. The final part they told me was we can receive His Spirit like they did back then because He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. I researched and found my Spirit friend Jesus did not change in water baptism and the in filling of His Spirit because it was a promise to all generations (Acts 2:38, 39.

Now, it was on. I started asking my best Spirit friend Jesus if He wanted me to have His Spirit like they did back then when the cloven tongues of fire came upon them giving them words of praise in another language than their native language as a sign they had received His Spirit then I wanted it also. This open attitude towards my Spirit friend and His word allowed Him to truly and literally move inside my body with my spirit. I was glad to go down into water baptism with His name pronounced over me washing away my sins. I was glad to ask Him directly to fill me with His Spirit with the evidence to myself and those around me of a language He gives me at that moment praising Him. I know now His Spirit and my spirit are roommates inside this body. I will never be alone, cry alone, hurt alone, and walk alone ever again.

He has balanced me out from the inside that “Nobody Knows” except Him with a wisdom that blesses me and those around me who are hurting past the surface of their flesh. He knows and wants to help if we will allow Him. I cannot give you the words that I feel in my spirit that would express enough gratitude for Him loving me beyond me and wanting to be a part of my life. I encourage you get His Bible and challenge Him for answers of your heart that no one knows, but you and Him. He will show you how to handle fear, hate, envy, jealousy, loneliness, and any other unlimited questions you may have. He will drop His thoughts into your thoughts that will make you smile beyond any joy you have ever experienced in this world. Don’t be alone ever again. May God bless you.

Based On Words

What is the first thought that comes to your mind when you hear “Based On Words“? ‘It is something someone has said’ or another possible first thought is ‘It is a he said she said’ proof of evidence angle. Also, one could possibly think of a person’s foundation of their belief is “Based On Words“. When you separate “Based On Words” you possibly see ‘Base‘ as a foundation or proof, ‘On‘ in this phrase could be seen as physically in contact with another referring to the top of something else, and ‘Words‘ as a form of communications. “Based On Words” put together could represent the proof is physically supported with words. Words are far more deep and powerful than most give credit.

The first thing that comes to mind is a situation where someone has believed someone else solely “Based On Words” without confirming the other side of the story making a final accusing judgment. I already feel the ‘Ouch!’ coming. This is where someone would open up the umbrella of misunderstanding after the fact of hearing the rest of the story with an apologetic tone or actually speak the words of ‘sorry’. Too late, the recording in our mind, heart, and soul has already locked it away along with the possible apology. Some people don’t wait for all the facts. They are just looking for an excuse to vent their anger, dislike, or frustration no matter the truth. This is sad for all of us, but even worse when no grows past it happening again. On the other side of someone believing someone else solely “Based On Words” when it is the truth can be painful at the moment, but after could be liberating. I personally hate deception and no matter the pain I have suffered once hearing the truth I was glad to be out from under the darkness. What is even worse is when you are in the darkness and everyone around you sees where you are and says nothing about it. This is another ‘Ouch!’ to our hearts, but gaining conscientiousness and wisdom converts the sour lemons into a lemonade we sip and drink calmly in the future.

Have you ever wondered about where do words come from or originate? This is a great question to think about because our daily lives are “Based On Words” more than we realize. Words were the connecting bridge of conscientiousness from baby sounds to clear expressions of desires. Yes, we physically interact with other physical objects and people all the time day and night, but all of this physical activity is driven by a non-physical being. Oh, no I have an alien living inside of me. Sorry, I had a moment to share a laugh with you. No, your spirit inside of you is not an alien from outer space, but it is the real you driving your physical body from within. This is really cool thing to grasp about the real you inside your body. Seeing yourself with understanding gives guidance through whatever good or bad times you may face in this life. We are already looking inside ourselves.  Where do words come from?

Your first thought may be the mind is where they come from. You are partly correct about the mind having its place with words, but not the origin. I think you will agree with this statement “Some people speak without thinking.” I automatically go to memories of the things in the past I had said without analyzing them for misunderstandings or deceptive implications. At this point the memories have returned the ‘Ouch!’ with a partner of ‘Sadness’ with others following. I next in line I see is ‘Regret’. I have the memory of the price I paid for those words after they left my lips. How does speaking without thinking occur? A clue of disconnection plays a part in this dilemma. We are getting closer to the origin of where “Based On Words” come from.

Something I must point out before heading to deep into the origin of our words is we all are storage units of flesh. Computers, laptops, smart phones, tablets and so on have places inside them that store data in order to function and interact. Some people call them hard drives, media drives, flash drives, thumb drives, Blu Rays, DVDs, CD’s, diskettes, tape drives, floppy drives…etc that store information on them. Storage is important to technology and without it there would be almost no technology. What you store inside yourself has far more importance and will be read in the end by a higher level of reading than technology would ever possess. You and I are storage units with as much as diversity as and possibly more than technology. Wow, you almost lost me and what does this have to do with where “Based On Words” originate from.

I personally believe we are created in the image and likeness of the one true God and beside Him there is no other. We (mankind) are extremely to complicated in all areas of our being physically and spiritually to be an accident that just happened to come together. I believe this all intelligent God created your inmost being inside your mother’s womb in a fearful and wonderful creation (Ps. 139:13, 14). This is why I think you are beautifully and wonderfully made because of the God that is behind you in your creation. You have something to give to God and others no one else can give. God made you unique and not a Doppelganger or clone (similarities are not identical). From an endless God we all can reflect a tiny portion of Him without being two of the same kind. If we are created in God’s image and likeness then we have stored many things inside of us just like He has all things stored inside of Him. We are getting warmer on the origin of “Based On Words” location inside of us.

The mind stores the intellectual properties of that help to form things we take time to analyze, but remember some speak without thinking. We have a storage that goes past the mind giving purpose to the “Based On Words” that come out of our mouths. I wanted to say ‘purpose’ first because as soon as you read the word ‘heart’ emotions override most people’s thinking at the word ‘heart’. It is true our heart is the emotion center, but not totally by itself. One thing to keep from getting lost and confused is when you try to totally separate and disconnect our inward parts. You and I have many parts (mind, heart, soul, and strength) inside of us working together as one body just like God has many parts inside of Himself, but He too is working together as one with Himself and it is confusing to try to separate and disconnect Him from Himself or us from within ourselves. To keep it on track your mind, works with your heart, and your heart works with your soul with your strength backing the decisions. It is like a council board within us coming together.

As an example some try to separate /disconnect God as a Father into another part as God as a separate Son, and another part as God as a separate Holy Spirit because of a few references, plurality translations from an everywhere God. He is not separate and disconnected no more than we are within ourselves. It was Him in the beginning like as a Father of all creation, and later He came among us to save us as like a son of mankind paying our debt to sin, and He came back to us to live inside of each one of us in His Spirit form with our spirit form. He is not separated, disconnected or divided He just came to us in three different stages or titles in mankind’s history and future. I was born a son to my parents, later a husband to my wife, and later a father to my children. These are three different stages or titles of the one person – me. This is a revelation of many parts inside oneness that is absolutely breath-taking once you see it. God is Omnipresent with nothing outside of Him making all things and many parts inside of His oneness. He can speak and do things from heaven and earth all at the same time – multitasking. We can multitask just like Him within ourselves with limits, but not like the limits of other creations. We are created special children in His image and likeness. Titles are easy to understand stages we have attained in life.

Separating, disconnecting, and dividing our mind, heart, soul, and strength will only confuse you and destroys our team work from within. If you see the oneness you and I must have to possess inside ourselves for a balanced life. Then you will see how many people today with division inside themselves train-wreck in many different ways. Our heart is the storage unit and the birth place of our words. Our heart does have the emotional characteristic, but also the purpose characteristic. This explains the ‘Speaking without thinking’ part when the emotional abundance of the heart explodes words of anger, hate, love, lust, frustration and so on. Our heart is the storage of good and bad things in life. It is our purpose center of what we will do with the good things and bad things stored there. What is stored inside our heart has the power of already doing it before they are physically done. This can be good things or bad things already committed. Good things can be something you want to help someone else with or bad things can be looking upon a woman lustfully committing adultery with her inside the heart (Mtt. 5:28). We can also convert the sour lemons life handed to us into a sweet taste of lemonade or allow the bitter lemons to rot in our hearts. Our heart stores the data with a label of purpose we put on it with the conviction (firmly held belief or opinion) we have concluded upon it. Do you see the importance and the power of the origin of “Based On Words“?

God wanted us to know about our heart because the “Based On Words” will come out of us everyday upon our fellow mankind. This is so important to understand our every word because God said that we would be judged “Based On Words” we speak for our acquittal or for our condemnation (Mtt. 12:36, 37). There are to many people today who are divided in their hearts, minds, and souls. “Based On Words” they speak one thing out of their mouths, but their hearts of purpose and intent are far from them (Mtt. 15:8). These are the same people we struggle to work with everyday and they struggle inside themselves because of their division is setting them up for a fall. God got mad at some religious people claiming to be His representatives because “Based On Words” they were speaking sugar-coated good words outwardly all the while their storage room heart was full of deception and evil. God wanted them to make a decision. A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him (Mtt. 12:34, 35; Lu. 6:45). This is a key place to see what God hates – division. He is not divided, but one in all things and as His children He does not want us to be divided. How much better would your life be if you were in complete oneness with yourself like God is with Himself?

For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of this is the origin of words. The “Based On Words” comes out of our mouth by-passing or passing through our minds to our tongue speaking what intentions are stored in our hearts. The thing(s) we said that hurt our parents, loved ones, and others was something that was either brewing in our hearts or a desire we were holding back from being said until it erupted forth.

The tongue is seen by most as a small member when looking at the totality of person’s body. Most people look at the outward appearance first what is known as either ‘eye candy’ or ‘pleasing to the eyes’ before they even consider hearing the words from the spirit inside their body. Some people can be outwardly beautiful or handsome to look upon, but after having a conversation with them their attitude stains their outward beauty into a spirit stained memory in your heart. The hidden small tongue is the doorway to what is stored in the hidden heart and mind. How many of us have been deceived because of others taking advantage of their outward appearance learning to speak deceiving words to gain their selfish hidden desires of their heart through using us?

You may have heard the saying, “Stick and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me“. This saying is pointing to the physical aspect only. The other side to it is the invisible battle of the words and your spirit. Words are not like a solid baseball bat to break someone’s bones physically, but they are like invisible poisonous injections into someone’s spirit. God wanted us to know that the tongue that speaks these words may be small in size, but no human being can tame the tongue (Ja. 3:8). A good size horse can be intimidating in its huge muscles, teeth, and hooves, but if you put a bit into the mouth where the tongue is you can make that huge horse obey you turning the whole animal in the direction you want to go. A huge ship in all of its large size fighting a strong wind is steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants it to go (Ja. 3:3, 4). The tongue is used “Based On Words” spoken on others determining if good or bad is imparted upon their eternal spirit side without physically harming the temporary flesh side from the storage room of their heart.

Our tongue can speak from the storehouse of our heart with a fire of evil corrupting the whole body setting into motion a path of fire throughout our life opening an invitation for hell to join itself with us making us a twofold child of the devil (Ja. 3:6; Mtt. 23:15).  This is a very powerful and scary understanding once you slow down to think how much inside damage a person can do with words alone. We have seen in the news how words influenced suicides, riots, fights, shootings, and other physical actions “Based On Words” alone. I understand why God does not speak idle talk for His every word comes true. He said, “So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.” (Is. 55:11). What if every word that came out of our mouths came true? The ‘speaking without thinking’ would be the fire of evil upon our sister or brother in the heat of the moment, the death of our parents in the flash of anger, and the destruction of possibly every living thing. All of us are born with a nature for selfishness. How often with our fleshly nature would we speak good things from a little child to adulthood?

Wow, to think my every word spoken would come true brings automatic tears to my eyes for some of the hateful things I have said in the spur-of-the-moment. How many times have our words or someone else’s was like throwing gasoline on a low flamed fire igniting it into a blaze? A huge forest has the appearance of strength until a small spark ignites inside its borders then the forest is no match for the growing flames. I know our words do have the power to automatically come true, but our words from the storehouse of our heart will be what we are judged by. There are so many aspects and effects that “Based On Words” change your life, mine, and those around us every day and in a split second they are spoken.

For my words to change the origin from which they are born must be changed first. The origin of my words changed when I made God and His word my best friend. He brings a balance to a person that if followed this life would know no end to the abundance of life and joy unspeakable. I am a witness from a person who lived in darkness and spoke darkness to those around me. The first steps after the change would be to take the counsel of my heart to my best roommate God/His Word, then with my mind, and soul.  This is the only way to bring oneness together in your spirit because outside of this balance would be mixed up division of discord and confusion. I know you who have had the confusion inside yourself remember the battles of ‘why am I here?’, ‘what good am I?’, ‘what’s the point in living?’, ‘does anyone really care?’, and many other questions understand the division inside your mind, heart, and soul. In this state people don’t perceive or understand what they hear coming out of your mouth because they cannot see your heart.

The power of “Based On Words” has this stipulation from God that “…this should not be.” when it comes to speaking from our hearts with our tongue we say one thing and the intentions of our heart is another. Would you not love to have a pure conversation without the worry or doubt of where the person is coming from with the words they are filling your ears with? We wonder inside our minds ‘what do they want?’ or ‘what are they up to?’ when listening to their smooth talking words. People can with their tongue praise God claiming the Christian life and turn around cursing other human beings with the same tongue forgetting God made them also in His likeness. This is where I must share with you that it is not God’s fault, but man’s freedom of choice to be cotton candy with their words and bitter selfishness of the heart.

Using God for personal gain will only end in spirit tragedy, but on the on the other side with uniting with God for personal change will evolve into walking into the light of understanding. God asks us, ‘Can you pour fresh water and mix salt water together without changing the taste of the water?’ We know the answer is ‘No’ because the salt will change the fresh water into undesirable and undrinkable liquid. I remember the first visit to the ocean having only fresh water up to this point. I was thinking “Based On Words” that I had heard about the ocean saltness was over exaggerated and take a good taste of it and spitting it out as quickly as it touch my taste buds. This is what “…ought not to be…”  God was speaking about. The words coming from our hearts flowing out of our tongues cannot be fresh words and stinging words of hurt without corruption taking over our lives (Ja. 3:9-12). One will, not maybe, corrupt the other and a fall is coming. This mixed up concoction is not only deadly to the individual, but also to those that take in their words like seeds into their storage room.

I have traveled my share of the road of darkness and have lived to write to you as I do now. I had a friend that walked in darkness and came to the light with many physical scares. People were scared of him just by his outward appearance though inside he was filled with God’s Spirit and forgiven. They would shake my hand freely and hesitate to shake his because of his evil-looking face and eyes. Outside he was rough-looking, but stored in his heart was the beginning of a new person. He did not know how to speak regular English words without cursing. Curse words were a normal form of speech for him. I did not judge him because I understood there was more to him than “Based On Words” he spoke. Beginning a new walk with God is one step at a time and one word at a time. This is many years later today and the same man as I flow with better words that are one with a better heart because of the daily fellowship with God and His word.

We all stumble in many ways. If anyone can control and never be at fault in what they say at all times is counted perfect and able to keep their whole body in check (Ja. 3:2). This explains part of the reason why God fills us with His Spirit like He did in Acts 2 showing the people a symbol of tongues wrapped in fire above them coming down upon them, entering them, spiritually burning out the things stored in their hearts of evil, and coming back out of them with fresh pure words of the praises of freedom to God’s glory. This is a freedom “Based On Words” from God only to be personally experienced to truly see a spiritual world of wonder and spiritual acceptance no other human being can give you. If you want to be rock solid inside yourself with the oneness of mind, heart, and soul the world cannot break seek the Lord and His word without man’s interpretation. I encourage not “Based On Words” that I speak, but seek the one I did and forever be changed into a new person never to be alone again.

God bless you and thank for reading this to the end. May the words you have read be of spirit and of life to your soul.

Your Aura

Have you ever quietly watched someone that seems to stand out? There is something about them that is different from the others surrounding them. You know it has nothing to do with their physical appearance for there are many others who have equal or even better appearance than them. There is a presence about them almost like an invisible aura emulating from them that catches your spiritual eye. The presence has a depth in that person and their mannerism that draws your eyes to want to see more. You find yourself wondering where did this come from and how do they keep it so vibrant? I believe I have been given the answer.

There were two people who owed money to a certain money-lender. One owed him five hundred and the other fifty. Neither of them had the money to pay him back. The stress of having no money to pay their debts was upon them both. One debt may have felt like a boulder crushing their back and the other a heavy rock in one hand. Nevertheless, being completely broke with no money has a defeating pressure upon a person’s mind, heart, and soul of bondage that mere words cannot convey the feelings of stress.

The lender knowing they did not have the ability to pay him back forgave them both of their debts. Which one of the two debtors will love the lender most?  One owed 500 and the other owed 50, which one would you believe to be the most thankful, grateful, and filled with love for the mercy shown them? If you have decided the one who had the bigger debt loved the lender most then you have judged correctly (Luke 7:41-43).

In this scene you have a Pharisee named Simon (highly religious person) that invited Jesus (God in flesh/Redeemer) into his house to sit together at the table and a woman (sin filled life sinner) from town at Jesus feet. Jesus could see that special something standing out from the others. He could see that something was different about her. It was not her physical beauty that stood apart. He could see that invisible aura emulating from her that caught his spiritual eye. Jesus saw the depth of her soul and her mannerism manifesting itself. In that moment Jesus wanted Simon to see more than her outward reputation of a sinful life. He wants all of us to see beyond outward appearances.

Simon, the Pharisee, quietly watching Jesus and the woman said inside himself “If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is—that she is a sinner.” (:39) Simon’s observation of Jesus and the woman was not that something was different about them, but he was blind in his spiritual eyes to the invisible presence of the woman’s repentant heart and the allowance of Jesus to her giving. Simon had no idea of where this woman was coming from nor understand the why Jesus was allowing such behavior to continue. Simon’s conclusion and judgment on Jesus was him not being a true servant of God and the woman’s touch would make unclean whatever it comes in contact with.

The woman quietly saw something special within herself about Jesus. She knew Simon the Pharisee from all the years of her sinful life and the effort he made to helping her to come to nothing, a zero. She wanted that something Jesus had in her life that was beyond his physical appearance. Her spiritual eyes saw a man who had the fountain of forgiveness and mercy within him. She could not sit back any longer she wanted more. She knew she was entering a home that counted her as an enemy of sin.

Back to the scene of Simon the Pharisee and Jesus at the table with the woman at Jesus feet. I see them sitting there quietly observing one another with their own spiritual thoughts looking upon each other while the woman is pouring herself out. Jesus is the one that presented the story of a lender, the one with a great debt, and the other with a little debt. Jesus is the one who put the question out there of “Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?” I believe everyone would agree with Simon’s answer of “I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.” (:43). This is Jesus/God extracting out of Simon to open and see with his spiritual eyes the truth of the aura on the woman and Jesus. God constantly wants us to see the invisible things in life. He doesn’t want us to miss them. They are to precious of a treasure to let slip by.

At this point Simon does not realize the lender is Jesus/God, the one with the greater debt is the sinful lived life woman, and the other with lesser debt was trying to live a righteous life was Simon himself. They both are in debt to sin with no way to pay. The only difference was one went farther into sin, stayed longer in sin, and cost her more than she wanted to pay in sin. Simon resisted going any farther, staying any longer, and costing him any more than he wanted to pay, yet he was still born into sin along with the woman.

Jesus the lender sitting between them saw their debt and wanted to forgive them both, but only one was ready to receive the forgiveness. She was that one that was standing out from the rest. She was the one that could shine the lighted path to God if only Simon could see her with the aura emulating her love towards God in-spite of her being a well-known sinner. She was not in darkness with her sin, but Simon was in his darkness of self-righteousness. Jesus is getting ready to open Simon’s blinded spiritual eyes to see the invisible that was hidden to him in plain sight.

As we continue I want you to keep score between Simon the Pharisee and the sinful woman. Jesus turns toward the woman guiding Simon’s attention to her, “Do you see this woman?” Simon is thinking physically seeing this woman and Jesus is pointing out the sight of her spirit. Jesus said I came into your house from the dusty street in my sandals and Simon you did not give me water to wash my dusty dirty feet (Simon score 0). This woman having no water except for the tears of her repentant heart poured out of her eyes upon my dusty dirty feet washing them clean (Woman score 1). After her liquid tears of repentance and unworthiness washed my feet she had no towel to dry them. She took what she knows to be her glory before God (1 Cor. 11:15) and dried my feet with the hair of her head symbolizing she is on rock bottom of life (Woman score 2, Simon score 0). Simon when I entered your house as the custom of this day you did not greet me with a kiss (Simon score 0 for the third opportunity). The woman from the time I entered has not stopped kissing my feet. If I see this correctly this woman from the rock bottom soul of her life started kissing his feet from the entrance to the table. To me this would mean she was on her knees crawling beside each foot step Jesus took going forward towards the table. Wow! Her debt of sin was a boulder crushing her to the point of death. She considered her lips to be dirtier with sin than the dust and dirt of this world upon Jesus feet. Her crawling on her knees and kissing with her lips were conveying the aura of repentance (Woman score 3, Simon score 0). Jesus continued to point out to Simon that he did not pour oil on his head another expected custom of that day. This woman took an expensive jar of alabaster perfume and poured it upon my feet (Woman score 4, Simon score 0).

Simon your final score was zero and the woman’s final score was four. Jesus said, her many sins have been forgiven as her great love has shown, but whoever has been forgiven little loves little. The hidden power of her soul came gushing forth with compassionate repenting faith in that something she saw with her spiritual eyes upon Jesus past his physical appearance into the merciful God residing inside. She had the faith that she was at the feet of the very throne of God seeking for another chance knowing only God can forgive sins. Her four points ended with four-given (Luke 7:43-48, 50).

Simon invited Jesus to his home walking shoulder to shoulder and did nothing for Jesus from his entrance to his home to the table of food, but this woman feeling unworthy crawled from the entrance of Simon’s home continually kissing the feet of Jesus, crying enough tears to wash Jesus feet, with her hair drying Jesus feet, and then pouring a jar of perfume over Jesus feet. Simon still did not see with his spiritual eyes the truth of the condition of the woman’s soul or his. He thought he was safe and alright, but his smug righteous state of mind missed the truth that all have sinned and come short of the glory of God (Ro. 3:23) forming a false godliness making it almost impossible for him to come to the truth (2 Tim 3:5, 7). He was in debt to sin just like the woman. His little debt ended up being the size of a plank over his eyes narrowing his judgment of the woman’s debt in comparison to a spec size (Mtt. 7:3-5).

I have seen certain people sing, worship, pray, speak, walk, talk, and even stand silently that have an aura about them that emulates a life that was once on the rock bottom, but now there is a redemption of anointed light about them that makes one hunger to have that glow in your life. Jesus revealed how all of us can have that special glow beyond our physical appearance. The secret is the amount of love. The woman had a life overflowing with sin and Simon had a life with a smaller amount of sin. If Simon could take that woman’s attitude of great love he could turn his little sin into a gratefulness of redemption like the woman whose faith in the crumbs was enough of a full meal to her needs (Mtt. 15:27). It is not the size of your sin that makes you great. It is the size of your love towards the forgiveness of those sins that makes you great.

The sins in my past and failures of the present (not perfect) drives me to pray that others would see Jesus past my outward appearance, hear Him beyond the sound of my words, and feel Him beyond my physical touch. I no longer want to give the world my darkness, but to give His light. Seeing the power this woman’s heart moves me to tears challenging my love for the Lord and the desire to see that special fresh glow in others. May you find your way past what people say about you or the blindness that is lying to your heart that you are perfectly fine the way you are. What team do you want to be on, Simon the Pharisee (Zero) or the woman (four-given)?