Hidden in Plain Sight – Page 2

I Want To Die

Hi! I am glad you stopped by to read “I Want To Die“. This is something that has crossed everyone’s mind sometime in their life. You are not alone. For some the thought of death was a flash and for others it became a returning subject to think about. To die has a closure and an ending sound to it and to live has an ongoing never-ending sound to it. One of them implies freedom and the other implies torture. I am glad you are here, now reading this because I don’t want you to be deceived anymore.

I was deceived and I don’t want you to make a decision based on lies. Death has many people thinking that this is an ending to all the things they are facing. As you read these words they are passing through the physical tunnel of your eyes into your eternal spirit inside your body. This is the real you no matter what you look like on the outside. Your eyes are only a temporary tunnel of sight to your eternal spirit behind them. This is the time to find the real you. Here comes one factual truth that your body is the only fleshly shell that can die everything else about you will remain forever. I hope this is not disappointing, but the real you will exist forever. A good question to ask at this time is do “I Want To Die” right now taking with me the bad things inside with me forever or do I want to find a way to make the bad things die and I live on free? The real you that is focused on these words will not die. I know and see my spirit is speaking to your spirit through these words, but a greater than both of us is here between us. He is the one that gave us our eternal spirits. He wanted me to know and you that death will only come to the body that is housing us. Your body will return to the dust of the earth eventually, but you – your spirit will continue forever in the state you left this world for better or worse.

Your spirit can face a type of death matching it as an eternal death, but it is more like a still living/existing death because you, your spirit is made of eternal substance and does not cease to exist like the body. Your spirit that will never die is being fed right now through your eyes and other senses. Your skin feeds your spirit the feelings of touching things or things touching you. Your ears captures the sounds around you feeding them to your spirit. Your mouth feeds your spirit the different tastes that enter it. Your nose is the tunnel funneling the different odors it smells to your spirit. Your spirit is the eternal storage of you. You are a living eternal spirit book that will always contain who you are inside of it (Ps. 40:7, Heb. 10:7 examples).

This may be a time to slow down and think about what is written on the pages of your spirit book ignoring for now your physical body. I know your spirit is full of things forced upon your pages by the things out of your control and some things you purposely did in life causing them to be recorded in you whether good or bad. I want you to know you are in control of your spiritual book. You do have the power to decide how things are written inside of you and the way they are to be understood. Your spirit is diary with easily called upon memories of pictures, videos, sounds, and words from the earliest time to the present of things you have collected. You can be the narrator of your own life or outside influences can plant their desires like a puppet on their string of what they want to see you do. “I Want To Die” is not the desire you were first-born with, but later on things of this life push it upon you.

Death in this world will only disconnect you from the earth, which may seem to be enough, but it will not disconnect your spirit from the spirit world. You will still exist forever with what you did here still inside you – your works and others. Even though you are in spirit form after leaving this world you will still see, hear, talk, feel, taste, and touch directly to your eternal (unchangeable) spirit. Your body is the temporary vehicle of this world by which your eternal spirit absorbs the data from. You and I see everyday how the bodies are temporary from the young to the growing older. I have seen in the elderly the young fire of their spirit behind their aging eyes longing to get out and do the things they once did when they were young. Your spirit is the eternal vehicle to God’s realm, but only when released by death to the physical body or when He comes a second time to this earth to gather us home.

DIFFERENT STAGES OF DEATH

You may still feel like death is the answer to be finally rid of this world. It will pass you from this world sending you to the next, but you will be taking what is in you with you in the present with no second chances of release. There are two different kinds of deaths you and I will face. Your fleshly body can physically die returning to the earth ceasing to exist in time, but your spirit is released into the spirit world where there is no time going straight to the place your spirit fits. Your body will cease to exist like ashes blown out of sight by the wind, but your spirit, the real you, will fly towards the eternal place that matches the condition of your spirit when you left this world. Do “I Want To Die” taking with me want is inside me right now? You will take this world with you stored inside your unchanged spirit into the spirit world. Your solid existence will now be in your spirit there will be no longer a need of accumulating anything from seeing, hearing, feeling, tasting, and smelling directly anymore for you are now eternally unchangeable like the angels. You will still be you without your earthly body.

You can decide right now to stop others from writing and influencing things written in your book of your spirit life. The world can do things to your body, but you have the power to lock your mind, heart, and soul on the inside to be what you want it to be. You are a child of God and you have His power to make free will choices no matter the level of evil against you. In the Bible there is a remarkable passage about a man who somehow allowed a legion of evil things to enter into the pages taking over the control of his spirit book inside him. It was clear to me he did not want to die in the present state he was in with those evil spirits. No matter how much they pushed him day and night to cut himself he would still not give into “I Want To Die“. When Jesus with God on the inside came near to him the tormented man made the choice to take his body full of those legions of evil spirits to face Almighty God. The man forced the things of this world to let go of his spiritual pen and gained the freedom to start writing in his own desires in his spirit book (Mark 5:6-13). I want you to read this passage yourself with your own spiritual eyes drinking in how you can live above the thoughts of “I Want To Die“. Allow the loneliness to be chased away.

This second death is not a ceasing to exist death, a going to sleep no consciousness, but a death of separation. We have experienced a death of separation from loved ones, pets, or other things in this life feeling the pain of sorrow and loss. This is as close to touching with understanding the second death of our spirit while still in this world. If you experience the second death you, your spirit, will be separated into a place that is considered to be death forever. The body is like a pencil that can be erased and your spirit is like a permanent magic marker that cannot be erased. The hurt, pain, sorrow, tears, and torment will be in your spirit which is eternal making the separation of suffering eternal in you (Lu. 16:23-31). This is the second death of separation and not a ceasing of existence or a sleep of no consciousness. You will be still alive never to sleep again, but you are separated to another eternal place worse than this temporary world you left. The bad things, the evil things, and horrors of this earth has no comparison to living eternally with the evil in the second death.

This earth is temporary and you can still fight for change, but the second death of the spirit is already a lost battle with no more chances to fight for change. What you have stored inside you now that makes you want to die is in a temporary phase. You do have a chance. Your flesh is trying to convince your spirit there is no way out other than dying. It is time for you to take hold of that which is inside you pulling it out of your book of your life and make it dead to your spirit, but you cannot do it alone completely.

You want to turn off the things inside your mind. You want them to go away. You want them to stop tormenting you. You just want some peace. You have tried drinking them away, but finding the fix is only temporary. The troubles are there waiting for you when the drinking has worn off. You are back to wishing for it to go away with the physical pains of the aftermath of drinking. Your frustration is now twice as much on your shoulders. You’re thinking if I could only stay drunk it would never return to torture me, but the money is not there to maintain that solution. The nowhere to go feeling opens the door to “I want to Die“.

The liquid of relaxation and other things that flows into your body is a feeling of a fix, but it is only a blanket pulled over your spirit hiding from your sight what is still there. The problems seem to go far away, but to return to the foot of your bed or in your front door. Your flesh was the intoxicated blanket and your spirit was the hiding child underneath. We have these adult like bodies carrying a spirit child inside them with a need of a more permanent fix. This is where death becomes a salesman selling the lies of a permanent solution or the only way out. Most do not want to admit it, but our child like spirit is desperate for pure true love beyond this world to engulf us that we can trust whole heartily.

How can I make it stop? I don’t feel like I have the ability to make it stop. I feel like I am totally surrounded with nowhere to go and with no one to turn to. No one sees my pain and suffering. They can only see my outside and when I try to share what is on the inside they don’t care. There is nothing, no one, no where that can help me. These are just a few things that gather around us, locking hands, and trying to block our view past them. I will agree with you. We all need more than ourselves and others to help us overcome the “I Want To Die” feeling. Somebody please help me.

The man I mentioned earlier whose spirit was surrounded by bad spirits voicing their desires all around him did the one thing that we all can do. They were polluting his soul. If we can get ourselves to the feet of Jesus. He is that someone greater than ourselves and others to help us overcome the “I Want To Die” thoughts and feelings. The man could not personally handle those evil spirits just like we feel overwhelmed, but he did not have to handle them by himself. He ran his body full of those dark evil thoughts and spirits down to the feet of Jesus who was full of God as God handled, Spirit to spirits, the sweet releasing freedom from the grip of darkness.

That is great for him, but how do I get to the feet of Jesus he is in heaven? Start speaking his name, Jesus, and pouring out what is written on your pages of your spirit to him. If you go after him like that man you will start to feel his presences fill the air about you. You will feel a powerful goose bump presences of light flowing over you and embracing you. Take all those bad things in your spirit book and tell him you don’t want to have anything to do with them anymore in the pages of your life. What you are doing is taking back your spirit book from the “I Want To Die” into your hands, turning around with it, and handing it to Jesus to help start writing good things in a new chapter of your life. This is the first step of your freedom. While you are saying his name, Jesus, and his presences is upon you, go past the first step of surrendering your body into surrendering your spirit to him. This is the power we all need on the inside to overcome the things on the outside removing the being alone and the relying on of others. Seeking Him first and His kingdom all these other things will be added unto you (Mtt. 6:33). You are headed towards the second birth that will save you from the second death while aiding you along through this life.

You and I need the right power inside of us to overcome and not be so dependent on others. The man had the legion of evil spirits trying to hold him hostage to their power. Jesus, the man, had the fullness of God in him bodily (Col. 2:9) showing him the free choices of the things in this life that he could choose. We all stand in this doorway of either having the voices of this world telling us what to do or we have God as our roommate showing us the right way. Don’t be alone with the wrong things talking into your ears. What do you have inside of you right now at this moment?

I called out to him, Jesus. I handed him my spirit book of eternal pages that could only be erased by his eternal Spirit because there is no power outside of him that can fix our spirit book inside of us. The world cannot erase it for it is written on eternal pages of a spirit. The devil cannot erase it because he is not the Creator, but a creation. I cannot erase it because I, too am just a creation and not God. I told him about those pages of torment and sins in my life repenting of never wanting to have anything to do with them again. He took my repentance and my spirit book into himself, erasing them with His blood through his name in water baptism (Acts 2:38). I surrendered in complete trust my spirit feeling him all over me then going inside of me deep into where my spirit was with a joy unspeakable embracing my heart, flowing upward and outward with His Spirit speaking the joy and praises in another language I did not learn helping me to express the fullness of His glory that the flesh of man cannot express, but by His Spirit.

Now, the “I Want To Die” is under the right understanding and the right control. Death from this life is still going to happen, but under the right control and the right timing with God inside. No longer do the voices of this world have the power to push you to die in a sinful condition that the second death of your spirit will send you to the eternal place of torment, but you can have a life that when you do die you go past the second death’s door straight into eternal Life’s door. Take back what rightfully belongs to you.

“I” still “Want To Die“, but to die the right death. You mean there is a right death as opposed to a wrong death? Yes, there is a right and wrong death. The wrong death is what we spoke of earlier dying with our spirit book full of bad and evil things. The right death is dying daily to those wrong things that want to enter into our spirit book after we have been born again. Our eternal pages of sin were erased by the blood eraser of Jesus Christ and He gave us His Spirit to guide us into all truth writing our eternal pages with the right things.

This is what I want you to be able to say with the authority of God backing you. “I Want To Die” the right death no longer living this life with my own or this world’s understandings, but by Jesus Christ who lives inside of me. The life that I now live in this body, I want to live by the faith, power, and guidance of Jesus Christ, who loved me and gave himself for me (Gal. 2:20, Ro. 8:14).

I, now, know that “I Want To Die” so that Jesus might live in me for I know when He lives in me the things written into my eternal pages has the greatest editor filtering the lies and deceptions of this world and the spirits that dwells in it. May you have the light of God inside your eyes and ears of your spirit leading you and guiding you with a story that all of heaven will long to hear.

Nobody Knows

There is no human being in the past, present, or future that knows in one hundred percent details of what is going on deep down inside your mind, heart, and soul except for one who is no longer here physically. Right now as you are reading these words sitting in a chair, laying on the bed, waiting for the bus to arrive, or at the kitchen table only you know the thoughts and feelings you are having at this moment. If there are people around you your thoughts and feeling are not being broadcast for anyone and everyone to see.

If you should even attempt to concentrate to broadcast your thoughts and feelings they will still go unnoticed and unheard. How many times have you stared into someone’s face while they are talking and the thoughts you are having would get you into trouble if they were broadcast out loud instantly? Most people rely upon body language to try to see inside others practicing a guessing game at what thoughts and feelings you are having, but never truly seeing one hundred percent details of your mind, heart, and soul.

The brother or sister you fought with growing up hearing you say, “I hate you” did not truly see the entire inside your mind and heart. The words could have been spoken because they were leaving you behind and the intention was just one more time give me some last-minute attention before you go, instead of “I hate you” and “I wish you would die” intentions. They did not see the broken heart and the inside tears dripping from the thoughts you are leaving me all alone. They did not see the hole that pulled away from your heart as they walked away. The reality of how much they were a part of the love in your heart surprises even yourself increasing the sorrow of “I did not realize until now” they are leaving. Nobody sees the engulfing defeating pain of “It is too late now” and “there is no second chance“. They only see the outside of facial and body language with no clue to the depth of suffering occurring right before their eyes hidden inside of you. Your spirit is not broadcasting one hundred percent of what is truly going on the inside of your body only the outward physical actions are dropping hints.

A great majority of people don’t even see with understanding the outward hints of the facial or physical clues. On top of that a great majority of people just don’t care, which is one of the saddest things on earth. There is a beauty to seeing and connecting to the inward parts of a person that go beyond descriptive words anyone could ever speak outwardly. There is a world inside each person that has mountains, valleys, rivers, slums, cities, towns, schools, jails, court rooms, execution rooms, happy places, war-torn zones, tombstones, sunrise, sunsets, rain, snow, teddy bears, snakes, horses, dogs, cats, birds, lakes, oceans, caves, and many more things.

Night has come and everyone has done their routine before bed as you lay down and the lights go out. Nobody knows as you silently lay there on your pillow the small trickling thoughts start flowing down your little creek bed as the water increases to overflowing your banks, out your eyes, down your check silently dripping and soaking into your pillow in the covered darkness of night. Even if you have someone beside you there is no broadcasting out loud the pain and suffering you are silently enduring. The bombing thoughts of something you love that is going away explodes all around you feeling powerless to stop the bombs falling from the sky. In the silence of the night inside your mind and heart an entire war can be erupting with a deafening sound to a hearing ear the horrific sites you see and “Nobody knows“. You lay there in a fox hole hoping the morning when and if you wake up to everything will be changed.

Inside your mind, heart, and spirit is an unlimited world that ‘Nobody knows‘ truly exists. Your body walks by the cubicles at work, the doorways, through the warehouse, down the assembly lines, or the saw-tables with every person absent-minded of the spirit of suffering inside. They see an outward smile you have practiced and hear words of greetings you have perfected, but the dying lonely spirit inside goes unseen and unheard.

As you walk with one foot falling out front with the other foot swinging into place in front of the other creating a forward motion for the body while the mind is frozen into place with heart pounding shock. The thoughts will not come for the numbness has them locked up. The pressure from deep down below begins to push its way upward as they reach the outlet at the top spilling out over the bottom eye lid. To the outside world water flows downhill naturally, but the hidden inward world of a hurting soul the water flows upward pushing up, out, and then down onto the cheek beside the nose to the chin dripping its brokenness. Who can truly see inside the house of flesh the details for the reason of suffering? Who truly cares to know in all purity of intentions? You body begins to stumble as you walk being a reflection to the staggering soul within. You want to help them so bad, but there are no ideas only emptiness with tormenting sorrow for the nothingness that can be done. Everything around you is totally oblivious to what is happening on the inside and you find yourself in place wondering ‘how did I get here?‘

Everyone leaves the house hearing the last person shut the door “Nobody Knows” your back leans against the wall sliding down to sitting on the floor as your arms prop onto your knees with your hands catching your face with streaming tears pouring into your hands as a deep mourning cry begins to burst forth with an utterance and a language that cannot be translated. You fall forward crawling towards the bed, couch, or chair dripping the tears of heartache and wishes. You dedicated many years of your life to saving that someone finding with all your efforts, sacrifices, and denying of personal happiness they walk away from you straight into the fire you wished to save and protect them from the burning pain. The wall holds no record broadcasting the memory of your sorrow. The floor, bed, couch, or chair does not highlight or glow the dripping spots of your tears to the evidence of your hidden tormenting brokenness.

Inside your body there is a gathering around your heart “Nobody Knows“. They have come together to crush your spirit with the past, present, and the future. Loneliness joins hands with powerlessness, powerlessness locks hands with sadness, sadness joins regret-fullness, regret-fullness joins with unfulfilled, unfulfilled with emptiness, nowhere to go and no answer in sight closes the circle around your heart starting the squeezing pressure of no tomorrow for you. ‘Why doesn’t someone truly see me?’, ‘Why does no one come to my help?’, ‘Why, am I so invisible?’

I am lonely with a loneliness physical gratification is not enough. The relationships that started quickly, a dream come true, a long time coming, too good to be true, played, and got together for the wrong reasons plagues the memories of a soul is something “Nobody Knows” the deep scars left inside the hidden spirit under our flesh. The physical plays only a band-aid part, but not the completeness of the cure. There is a hunger and thirst that goes far beyond the limits of this lonely house of flesh we live in.

Your spirit is inside your house of flesh. No one can truly look in through your windows seeing one hundred percent in details what your spirit is doing, thinking, or feeling on the inside. You can be shoulder to shoulder at a concert with someone thinking of dying inches away from your spirit and you would never know it. They could be sitting in the chair next to you with a broken heart of despair and you would never know it. They can be a well-known person in the public’s eye with a spirit of detrimental loneliness that you would never know. They can be handsome, beautiful, pretty, short, tall, and ugly by the world’s outward judgments, but inside “Nobody Knows” the true positive or negative form. They can be presidents, secretaries, doctors, lawyers, cashiers, nurses, carpenters, farmers, technologist, pastors, priests, choir members, coaches, husbands wives, roommates you see every day and yet “Nobody Knows” the suffering of their souls.

What do you live for? What is it you get up every morning to live for? What keeps you going on the outside though your insides are broken and torn? What holds you together? Do you think you will ever find complete happiness? Will the morning come that you wake up and all will be as you have dreamed it would be?

If deep down your answers to the above questions have a short coming to your expectations what can you do about it? Powerlessness may step up and say, ‘I cannot change others and the world I have tried them and on me‘. You are looking on the outside. Trusting people to be the hero that saves you at the end of the day is the fantasy you wish to see, but only fulfilled on make-believe shows. People will fail us because it is in all of our natures. Today you will not find many in this world that can walk by you and see the real you, stopping in the crowd, turning to you, and inviting you to eat with them (Lu. 19:2-6). You will not find someone who purposely goes out of their way to a spot you visit everyday just to meet you, talk to you, and try to help you (Jn. 4:4-42). You will not find many who will see through others trying to do you harm for their own selfish reasons using you, stand up for you, pointing the twisting of the law back at them, and after they leave offer you a hand up to go free because neither do they condemn you (Jn. 8:2-11). You will not find many in this world to accept you as you are and still want to keep company with you (Mtt. 9:10-13).

If finding that someone on the outside falls short what about doing something about the inside? Can you find something that will work on the inside that nobody on the outside could ever reach? We all at one point or another seek a physical existing partnership of someone who truly sees us with complete understanding and hears us with complete perception (they get us). Finding someone at your level of thinking, morals, and desires in completeness is almost near to zero chances. You may get close to finding that someone, but the majority of the world simply adapts to their situation with the outward facial/body expressions and rehearsed words of conversations. Another percentage of the world gives up and turns to substances that provide physical escapes through their flesh pushing those highs and lows upon their spirits.

You have a spirit door that leads to the inside of your body. You can open your spirit door and allow a roommate to move into the place where “Nobody Knows” the real you. As with all things you must be careful who you open your spirit door to. People cannot become one with your inside spirit literally. They can live with you with their physical body beside your physical body, but they will still not live inside your body where the real you hurts in the night-time crying tears silently into your pillow as they sleep. They may get accustomed your habits mimicking a oneness with your spirit, but still clueless to the details of your spirit. What we are looking for is beyond what this world can offer.

There are spiritual roommates that can live inside with us. I had many encounters of different kinds of spirit roommates. Some spirits wanted to live in a drug world, alcohol world, sexual world, players world, money world, power world, and many other types of worlds, but the conclusion of all of these pointed to one hundred percent satisfying the physical flesh side and leaving the spirit side to be thrown away and forgotten. I found one Spirit that did not push satisfying the flesh. The flesh is what everyone else sees and ignores the suffering of the spirit within. This one Spirit loved and adored the hidden spirit within that “Nobody Knows” or cares about other than to use it for their own gain. I started my research seeking this one Spirit. I found Him helping others no matter their status quo in life, outward beauty meant nothing to Him, and He willingly helped without demanding payment. I challenged Him with questions of the heart about love, hate, marriage, kindness, revenge, death, life, loneliness, sorrow, and whatever else came my way. I started to trust His answers because the results helped me sleep at night, wake up the next day happy, and pass through the day even when people did not care.

As time passed by I felt He was the Spirit roommate I wanted inside with mine automatically. One day someone said some challenging things about my Spirit friend and His word. Of course, I nodded and smiled while inside I was thinking I will go home and see for myself if what they said holds true to what my Spirit roommate says. He said my friend was the same yesterday, today, and forever, which I found in Hebrews 13:8. I said to myself and my Spirit Friend ‘OK, that is true because it is in Your word and not twisted.‘ They told me that no one in the entire Bible was ever baptized in the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. This was still the same conversation that I had nodded and smiled. I found in Matthew 28:19 is where my Spirit friend had said, “Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you:..” OK, this was true what He said to His disciples of that day in the past, but now it was onto researching where they baptized people. I kept going because my Spirit friend was the most important friend of all because He knew exactly what I was suffering on the inside while the rest of the world turned away. I researched using all kinds of tools to find water baptism in the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit. Again, I found what they told me was true that no one in the entire Bible record was baptized in the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit, but I did find several Bible recorded water baptisms in the name of Jesus Christ. This made me go “Hmm”. My best Spirit friend in His word only baptized in His name for the reason of applying His blood to wash away my sins, which made sense to me because you cannot kill the Father or the Holy Spirit. I only agreed with this because it completely matched my Spirit friend Jesus and I trusted Him more than people. The final part they told me was we can receive His Spirit like they did back then because He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. I researched and found my Spirit friend Jesus did not change in water baptism and the in filling of His Spirit because it was a promise to all generations (Acts 2:38, 39.

Now, it was on. I started asking my best Spirit friend Jesus if He wanted me to have His Spirit like they did back then when the cloven tongues of fire came upon them giving them words of praise in another language than their native language as a sign they had received His Spirit then I wanted it also. This open attitude towards my Spirit friend and His word allowed Him to truly and literally move inside my body with my spirit. I was glad to go down into water baptism with His name pronounced over me washing away my sins. I was glad to ask Him directly to fill me with His Spirit with the evidence to myself and those around me of a language He gives me at that moment praising Him. I know now His Spirit and my spirit are roommates inside this body. I will never be alone, cry alone, hurt alone, and walk alone ever again.

He has balanced me out from the inside that “Nobody Knows” except Him with a wisdom that blesses me and those around me who are hurting past the surface of their flesh. He knows and wants to help if we will allow Him. I cannot give you the words that I feel in my spirit that would express enough gratitude for Him loving me beyond me and wanting to be a part of my life. I encourage you get His Bible and challenge Him for answers of your heart that no one knows, but you and Him. He will show you how to handle fear, hate, envy, jealousy, loneliness, and any other unlimited questions you may have. He will drop His thoughts into your thoughts that will make you smile beyond any joy you have ever experienced in this world. Don’t be alone ever again. May God bless you.

Based On Words

What is the first thought that comes to your mind when you hear “Based On Words“? ‘It is something someone has said’ or another possible first thought is ‘It is a he said she said’ proof of evidence angle. Also, one could possibly think of a person’s foundation of their belief is “Based On Words“. When you separate “Based On Words” you possibly see ‘Base‘ as a foundation or proof, ‘On‘ in this phrase could be seen as physically in contact with another referring to the top of something else, and ‘Words‘ as a form of communications. “Based On Words” put together could represent the proof is physically supported with words. Words are far more deep and powerful than most give credit.

The first thing that comes to mind is a situation where someone has believed someone else solely “Based On Words” without confirming the other side of the story making a final accusing judgment. I already feel the ‘Ouch!’ coming. This is where someone would open up the umbrella of misunderstanding after the fact of hearing the rest of the story with an apologetic tone or actually speak the words of ‘sorry’. Too late, the recording in our mind, heart, and soul has already locked it away along with the possible apology. Some people don’t wait for all the facts. They are just looking for an excuse to vent their anger, dislike, or frustration no matter the truth. This is sad for all of us, but even worse when no grows past it happening again. On the other side of someone believing someone else solely “Based On Words” when it is the truth can be painful at the moment, but after could be liberating. I personally hate deception and no matter the pain I have suffered once hearing the truth I was glad to be out from under the darkness. What is even worse is when you are in the darkness and everyone around you sees where you are and says nothing about it. This is another ‘Ouch!’ to our hearts, but gaining conscientiousness and wisdom converts the sour lemons into a lemonade we sip and drink calmly in the future.

Have you ever wondered about where do words come from or originate? This is a great question to think about because our daily lives are “Based On Words” more than we realize. Words were the connecting bridge of conscientiousness from baby sounds to clear expressions of desires. Yes, we physically interact with other physical objects and people all the time day and night, but all of this physical activity is driven by a non-physical being. Oh, no I have an alien living inside of me. Sorry, I had a moment to share a laugh with you. No, your spirit inside of you is not an alien from outer space, but it is the real you driving your physical body from within. This is really cool thing to grasp about the real you inside your body. Seeing yourself with understanding gives guidance through whatever good or bad times you may face in this life. We are already looking inside ourselves. Where do words come from?

Your first thought may be the mind is where they come from. You are partly correct about the mind having its place with words, but not the origin. I think you will agree with this statement “Some people speak without thinking.” I automatically go to memories of the things in the past I had said without analyzing them for misunderstandings or deceptive implications. At this point the memories have returned the ‘Ouch!’ with a partner of ‘Sadness’ with others following. I next in line I see is ‘Regret’. I have the memory of the price I paid for those words after they left my lips. How does speaking without thinking occur? A clue of disconnection plays a part in this dilemma. We are getting closer to the origin of where “Based On Words” come from.

Something I must point out before heading to deep into the origin of our words is we all are storage units of flesh. Computers, laptops, smart phones, tablets and so on have places inside them that store data in order to function and interact. Some people call them hard drives, media drives, flash drives, thumb drives, Blu Rays, DVDs, CD’s, diskettes, tape drives, floppy drives…etc that store information on them. Storage is important to technology and without it there would be almost no technology. What you store inside yourself has far more importance and will be read in the end by a higher level of reading than technology would ever possess. You and I are storage units with as much as diversity as and possibly more than technology. Wow, you almost lost me and what does this have to do with where “Based On Words” originate from.

I personally believe we are created in the image and likeness of the one true God and beside Him there is no other. We (mankind) are extremely to complicated in all areas of our being physically and spiritually to be an accident that just happened to come together. I believe this all intelligent God created your inmost being inside your mother’s womb in a fearful and wonderful creation (Ps. 139:13, 14). This is why I think you are beautifully and wonderfully made because of the God that is behind you in your creation. You have something to give to God and others no one else can give. God made you unique and not a Doppelganger or clone (similarities are not identical). From an endless God we all can reflect a tiny portion of Him without being two of the same kind. If we are created in God’s image and likeness then we have stored many things inside of us just like He has all things stored inside of Him. We are getting warmer on the origin of “Based On Words” location inside of us.

The mind stores the intellectual properties of that help to form things we take time to analyze, but remember some speak without thinking. We have a storage that goes past the mind giving purpose to the “Based On Words” that come out of our mouths. I wanted to say ‘purpose’ first because as soon as you read the word ‘heart’ emotions override most people’s thinking at the word ‘heart’. It is true our heart is the emotion center, but not totally by itself. One thing to keep from getting lost and confused is when you try to totally separate and disconnect our inward parts. You and I have many parts (mind, heart, soul, and strength) inside of us working together as one body just like God has many parts inside of Himself, but He too is working together as one with Himself and it is confusing to try to separate and disconnect Him from Himself or us from within ourselves. To keep it on track your mind, works with your heart, and your heart works with your soul with your strength backing the decisions. It is like a council board within us coming together.

As an example some try to separate /disconnect God as a Father into another part as God as a separate Son, and another part as God as a separate Holy Spirit because of a few references, plurality translations from an everywhere God. He is not separate and disconnected no more than we are within ourselves. It was Him in the beginning like as a Father of all creation, and later He came among us to save us as like a son of mankind paying our debt to sin, and He came back to us to live inside of each one of us in His Spirit form with our spirit form. He is not separated, disconnected or divided He just came to us in three different stages or titles in mankind’s history and future. I was born a son to my parents, later a husband to my wife, and later a father to my children. These are three different stages or titles of the one person – me. This is a revelation of many parts inside oneness that is absolutely breath-taking once you see it. God is Omnipresent with nothing outside of Him making all things and many parts inside of His oneness. He can speak and do things from heaven and earth all at the same time – multitasking. We can multitask just like Him within ourselves with limits, but not like the limits of other creations. We are created special children in His image and likeness. Titles are easy to understand stages we have attained in life.

Separating, disconnecting, and dividing our mind, heart, soul, and strength will only confuse you and destroys our team work from within. If you see the oneness you and I must have to possess inside ourselves for a balanced life. Then you will see how many people today with division inside themselves train-wreck in many different ways. Our heart is the storage unit and the birth place of our words. Our heart does have the emotional characteristic, but also the purpose characteristic. This explains the ‘Speaking without thinking’ part when the emotional abundance of the heart explodes words of anger, hate, love, lust, frustration and so on. Our heart is the storage of good and bad things in life. It is our purpose center of what we will do with the good things and bad things stored there. What is stored inside our heart has the power of already doing it before they are physically done. This can be good things or bad things already committed. Good things can be something you want to help someone else with or bad things can be looking upon a woman lustfully committing adultery with her inside the heart (Mtt. 5:28). We can also convert the sour lemons life handed to us into a sweet taste of lemonade or allow the bitter lemons to rot in our hearts. Our heart stores the data with a label of purpose we put on it with the conviction (firmly held belief or opinion) we have concluded upon it. Do you see the importance and the power of the origin of “Based On Words“?

God wanted us to know about our heart because the “Based On Words” will come out of us everyday upon our fellow mankind. This is so important to understand our every word because God said that we would be judged “Based On Words” we speak for our acquittal or for our condemnation (Mtt. 12:36, 37). There are to many people today who are divided in their hearts, minds, and souls. “Based On Words” they speak one thing out of their mouths, but their hearts of purpose and intent are far from them (Mtt. 15:8). These are the same people we struggle to work with everyday and they struggle inside themselves because of their division is setting them up for a fall. God got mad at some religious people claiming to be His representatives because “Based On Words” they were speaking sugar-coated good words outwardly all the while their storage room heart was full of deception and evil. God wanted them to make a decision. A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him (Mtt. 12:34, 35; Lu. 6:45). This is a key place to see what God hates – division. He is not divided, but one in all things and as His children He does not want us to be divided. How much better would your life be if you were in complete oneness with yourself like God is with Himself?

For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of this is the origin of words. The “Based On Words” comes out of our mouth by-passing or passing through our minds to our tongue speaking what intentions are stored in our hearts. The thing(s) we said that hurt our parents, loved ones, and others was something that was either brewing in our hearts or a desire we were holding back from being said until it erupted forth.

The tongue is seen by most as a small member when looking at the totality of person’s body. Most people look at the outward appearance first what is known as either ‘eye candy’ or ‘pleasing to the eyes’ before they even consider hearing the words from the spirit inside their body. Some people can be outwardly beautiful or handsome to look upon, but after having a conversation with them their attitude stains their outward beauty into a spirit stained memory in your heart. The hidden small tongue is the doorway to what is stored in the hidden heart and mind. How many of us have been deceived because of others taking advantage of their outward appearance learning to speak deceiving words to gain their selfish hidden desires of their heart through using us?

You may have heard the saying, “Stick and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me“. This saying is pointing to the physical aspect only. The other side to it is the invisible battle of the words and your spirit. Words are not like a solid baseball bat to break someone’s bones physically, but they are like invisible poisonous injections into someone’s spirit. God wanted us to know that the tongue that speaks these words may be small in size, but no human being can tame the tongue (Ja. 3:8). A good size horse can be intimidating in its huge muscles, teeth, and hooves, but if you put a bit into the mouth where the tongue is you can make that huge horse obey you turning the whole animal in the direction you want to go. A huge ship in all of its large size fighting a strong wind is steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants it to go (Ja. 3:3, 4). The tongue is used “Based On Words” spoken on others determining if good or bad is imparted upon their eternal spirit side without physically harming the temporary flesh side from the storage room of their heart.

Our tongue can speak from the storehouse of our heart with a fire of evil corrupting the whole body setting into motion a path of fire throughout our life opening an invitation for hell to join itself with us making us a twofold child of the devil (Ja. 3:6; Mtt. 23:15). This is a very powerful and scary understanding once you slow down to think how much inside damage a person can do with words alone. We have seen in the news how words influenced suicides, riots, fights, shootings, and other physical actions “Based On Words” alone. I understand why God does not speak idle talk for His every word comes true. He said, “So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.” (Is. 55:11). What if every word that came out of our mouths came true? The ‘speaking without thinking’ would be the fire of evil upon our sister or brother in the heat of the moment, the death of our parents in the flash of anger, and the destruction of possibly every living thing. All of us are born with a nature for selfishness. How often with our fleshly nature would we speak good things from a little child to adulthood?

Wow, to think my every word spoken would come true brings automatic tears to my eyes for some of the hateful things I have said in the spur-of-the-moment. How many times have our words or someone else’s was like throwing gasoline on a low flamed fire igniting it into a blaze? A huge forest has the appearance of strength until a small spark ignites inside its borders then the forest is no match for the growing flames. I know our words do have the power to automatically come true, but our words from the storehouse of our heart will be what we are judged by. There are so many aspects and effects that “Based On Words” change your life, mine, and those around us every day and in a split second they are spoken.

For my words to change the origin from which they are born must be changed first. The origin of my words changed when I made God and His word my best friend. He brings a balance to a person that if followed this life would know no end to the abundance of life and joy unspeakable. I am a witness from a person who lived in darkness and spoke darkness to those around me. The first steps after the change would be to take the counsel of my heart to my best roommate God/His Word, then with my mind, and soul. This is the only way to bring oneness together in your spirit because outside of this balance would be mixed up division of discord and confusion. I know you who have had the confusion inside yourself remember the battles of ‘why am I here?’, ‘what good am I?’, ‘what’s the point in living?’, ‘does anyone really care?’, and many other questions understand the division inside your mind, heart, and soul. In this state people don’t perceive or understand what they hear coming out of your mouth because they cannot see your heart.

The power of “Based On Words” has this stipulation from God that “…this should not be.” when it comes to speaking from our hearts with our tongue we say one thing and the intentions of our heart is another. Would you not love to have a pure conversation without the worry or doubt of where the person is coming from with the words they are filling your ears with? We wonder inside our minds ‘what do they want?’ or ‘what are they up to?’ when listening to their smooth talking words. People can with their tongue praise God claiming the Christian life and turn around cursing other human beings with the same tongue forgetting God made them also in His likeness. This is where I must share with you that it is not God’s fault, but man’s freedom of choice to be cotton candy with their words and bitter selfishness of the heart.

Using God for personal gain will only end in spirit tragedy, but on the on the other side with uniting with God for personal change will evolve into walking into the light of understanding. God asks us, ‘Can you pour fresh water and mix salt water together without changing the taste of the water?’ We know the answer is ‘No’ because the salt will change the fresh water into undesirable and undrinkable liquid. I remember the first visit to the ocean having only fresh water up to this point. I was thinking “Based On Words” that I had heard about the ocean saltness was over exaggerated and take a good taste of it and spitting it out as quickly as it touch my taste buds. This is what “…ought not to be…” God was speaking about. The words coming from our hearts flowing out of our tongues cannot be fresh words and stinging words of hurt without corruption taking over our lives (Ja. 3:9-12). One will, not maybe, corrupt the other and a fall is coming. This mixed up concoction is not only deadly to the individual, but also to those that take in their words like seeds into their storage room.

I have traveled my share of the road of darkness and have lived to write to you as I do now. I had a friend that walked in darkness and came to the light with many physical scares. People were scared of him just by his outward appearance though inside he was filled with God’s Spirit and forgiven. They would shake my hand freely and hesitate to shake his because of his evil-looking face and eyes. Outside he was rough-looking, but stored in his heart was the beginning of a new person. He did not know how to speak regular English words without cursing. Curse words were a normal form of speech for him. I did not judge him because I understood there was more to him than “Based On Words” he spoke. Beginning a new walk with God is one step at a time and one word at a time. This is many years later today and the same man as I flow with better words that are one with a better heart because of the daily fellowship with God and His word.

We all stumble in many ways. If anyone can control and never be at fault in what they say at all times is counted perfect and able to keep their whole body in check (Ja. 3:2). This explains part of the reason why God fills us with His Spirit like He did in Acts 2 showing the people a symbol of tongues wrapped in fire above them coming down upon them, entering them, spiritually burning out the things stored in their hearts of evil, and coming back out of them with fresh pure words of the praises of freedom to God’s glory. This is a freedom “Based On Words” from God only to be personally experienced to truly see a spiritual world of wonder and spiritual acceptance no other human being can give you. If you want to be rock solid inside yourself with the oneness of mind, heart, and soul the world cannot break seek the Lord and His word without man’s interpretation. I encourage not “Based On Words” that I speak, but seek the one I did and forever be changed into a new person never to be alone again.

God bless you and thank for reading this to the end. May the words you have read be of spirit and of life to your soul.

Your Aura

Have you ever quietly watched someone that seems to stand out? There is something about them that is different from the others surrounding them. You know it has nothing to do with their physical appearance for there are many others who have equal or even better appearance than them. There is a presence about them almost like an invisible aura emulating from them that catches your spiritual eye. The presence has a depth in that person and their mannerism that draws your eyes to want to see more. You find yourself wondering where did this come from and how do they keep it so vibrant? I believe I have been given the answer.

There were two people who owed money to a certain money-lender. One owed him five hundred and the other fifty. Neither of them had the money to pay him back. The stress of having no money to pay their debts was upon them both. One debt may have felt like a boulder crushing their back and the other a heavy rock in one hand. Nevertheless, being completely broke with no money has a defeating pressure upon a person’s mind, heart, and soul of bondage that mere words cannot convey the feelings of stress.

The lender knowing they did not have the ability to pay him back forgave them both of their debts. Which one of the two debtors will love the lender most? One owed 500 and the other owed 50, which one would you believe to be the most thankful, grateful, and filled with love for the mercy shown them? If you have decided the one who had the bigger debt loved the lender most then you have judged correctly (Luke 7:41-43).

In this scene you have a Pharisee named Simon (highly religious person) that invited Jesus (God in flesh/Redeemer) into his house to sit together at the table and a woman (sin filled life sinner) from town at Jesus feet. Jesus could see that special something standing out from the others. He could see that something was different about her. It was not her physical beauty that stood apart. He could see that invisible aura emulating from her that caught his spiritual eye. Jesus saw the depth of her soul and her mannerism manifesting itself. In that moment Jesus wanted Simon to see more than her outward reputation of a sinful life. He wants all of us to see beyond outward appearances.

Simon, the Pharisee, quietly watching Jesus and the woman said inside himself “If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is—that she is a sinner.” (:39) Simon’s observation of Jesus and the woman was not that something was different about them, but he was blind in his spiritual eyes to the invisible presence of the woman’s repentant heart and the allowance of Jesus to her giving. Simon had no idea of where this woman was coming from nor understand the why Jesus was allowing such behavior to continue. Simon’s conclusion and judgment on Jesus was him not being a true servant of God and the woman’s touch would make unclean whatever it comes in contact with.

The woman quietly saw something special within herself about Jesus. She knew Simon the Pharisee from all the years of her sinful life and the effort he made to helping her to come to nothing, a zero. She wanted that something Jesus had in her life that was beyond his physical appearance. Her spiritual eyes saw a man who had the fountain of forgiveness and mercy within him. She could not sit back any longer she wanted more. She knew she was entering a home that counted her as an enemy of sin.

Back to the scene of Simon the Pharisee and Jesus at the table with the woman at Jesus feet. I see them sitting there quietly observing one another with their own spiritual thoughts looking upon each other while the woman is pouring herself out. Jesus is the one that presented the story of a lender, the one with a great debt, and the other with a little debt. Jesus is the one who put the question out there of “Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?” I believe everyone would agree with Simon’s answer of “I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.” (:43). This is Jesus/God extracting out of Simon to open and see with his spiritual eyes the truth of the aura on the woman and Jesus. God constantly wants us to see the invisible things in life. He doesn’t want us to miss them. They are to precious of a treasure to let slip by.

At this point Simon does not realize the lender is Jesus/God, the one with the greater debt is the sinful lived life woman, and the other with lesser debt was trying to live a righteous life was Simon himself. They both are in debt to sin with no way to pay. The only difference was one went farther into sin, stayed longer in sin, and cost her more than she wanted to pay in sin. Simon resisted going any farther, staying any longer, and costing him any more than he wanted to pay, yet he was still born into sin along with the woman.

Jesus the lender sitting between them saw their debt and wanted to forgive them both, but only one was ready to receive the forgiveness. She was that one that was standing out from the rest. She was the one that could shine the lighted path to God if only Simon could see her with the aura emulating her love towards God in-spite of her being a well-known sinner. She was not in darkness with her sin, but Simon was in his darkness of self-righteousness. Jesus is getting ready to open Simon’s blinded spiritual eyes to see the invisible that was hidden to him in plain sight.

As we continue I want you to keep score between Simon the Pharisee and the sinful woman. Jesus turns toward the woman guiding Simon’s attention to her, “Do you see this woman?” Simon is thinking physically seeing this woman and Jesus is pointing out the sight of her spirit. Jesus said I came into your house from the dusty street in my sandals and Simon you did not give me water to wash my dusty dirty feet (Simon score 0). This woman having no water except for the tears of her repentant heart poured out of her eyes upon my dusty dirty feet washing them clean (Woman score 1). After her liquid tears of repentance and unworthiness washed my feet she had no towel to dry them. She took what she knows to be her glory before God (1 Cor. 11:15) and dried my feet with the hair of her head symbolizing she is on rock bottom of life (Woman score 2, Simon score 0). Simon when I entered your house as the custom of this day you did not greet me with a kiss (Simon score 0 for the third opportunity). The woman from the time I entered has not stopped kissing my feet. If I see this correctly this woman from the rock bottom soul of her life started kissing his feet from the entrance to the table. To me this would mean she was on her knees crawling beside each foot step Jesus took going forward towards the table. Wow! Her debt of sin was a boulder crushing her to the point of death. She considered her lips to be dirtier with sin than the dust and dirt of this world upon Jesus feet. Her crawling on her knees and kissing with her lips were conveying the aura of repentance (Woman score 3, Simon score 0). Jesus continued to point out to Simon that he did not pour oil on his head another expected custom of that day. This woman took an expensive jar of alabaster perfume and poured it upon my feet (Woman score 4, Simon score 0).

Simon your final score was zero and the woman’s final score was four. Jesus said, her many sins have been forgiven as her great love has shown, but whoever has been forgiven little loves little. The hidden power of her soul came gushing forth with compassionate repenting faith in that something she saw with her spiritual eyes upon Jesus past his physical appearance into the merciful God residing inside. She had the faith that she was at the feet of the very throne of God seeking for another chance knowing only God can forgive sins. Her four points ended with four-given (Luke 7:43-48, 50).

Simon invited Jesus to his home walking shoulder to shoulder and did nothing for Jesus from his entrance to his home to the table of food, but this woman feeling unworthy crawled from the entrance of Simon’s home continually kissing the feet of Jesus, crying enough tears to wash Jesus feet, with her hair drying Jesus feet, and then pouring a jar of perfume over Jesus feet. Simon still did not see with his spiritual eyes the truth of the condition of the woman’s soul or his. He thought he was safe and alright, but his smug righteous state of mind missed the truth that all have sinned and come short of the glory of God (Ro. 3:23) forming a false godliness making it almost impossible for him to come to the truth (2 Tim 3:5, 7). He was in debt to sin just like the woman. His little debt ended up being the size of a plank over his eyes narrowing his judgment of the woman’s debt in comparison to a spec size (Mtt. 7:3-5).

I have seen certain people sing, worship, pray, speak, walk, talk, and even stand silently that have an aura about them that emulates a life that was once on the rock bottom, but now there is a redemption of anointed light about them that makes one hunger to have that glow in your life. Jesus revealed how all of us can have that special glow beyond our physical appearance. The secret is the amount of love. The woman had a life overflowing with sin and Simon had a life with a smaller amount of sin. If Simon could take that woman’s attitude of great love he could turn his little sin into a gratefulness of redemption like the woman whose faith in the crumbs was enough of a full meal to her needs (Mtt. 15:27). It is not the size of your sin that makes you great. It is the size of your love towards the forgiveness of those sins that makes you great.

The sins in my past and failures of the present (not perfect) drives me to pray that others would see Jesus past my outward appearance, hear Him beyond the sound of my words, and feel Him beyond my physical touch. I no longer want to give the world my darkness, but to give His light. Seeing the power this woman’s heart moves me to tears challenging my love for the Lord and the desire to see that special fresh glow in others. May you find your way past what people say about you or the blindness that is lying to your heart that you are perfectly fine the way you are. What team do you want to be on, Simon the Pharisee (Zero) or the woman (four-given)?

See Me

It is a very saddening experience when you feel like no one sees you. You know you have solid form like everyone else yet it seems like you are a ghost. If they do by chance see you their opinion of you is not much higher than a stray dog or their facial expression has that looking down their noses on you. The worse of it all is living daily among other people as though you are not there. You get up feed yourself, get dressed for school or work, and walk into a people filled room with no one taking the time to speak kindly with you acknowledging your existence. You would not verbally admit it, but there is that longing inside for others to “See Me” the inside and not by the outside only.

Self-worth/esteem is a respect, a confidence, or a satisfaction opinion you have of yourself. Opinions exist in those on the outside observing you and on the inside with you judging yourself. You may be invisible to others or not worthy of their attention, but you are not invisible to yourself. Examine yourself with thought questions and answering them with raw truth. For example: the thought question “Am I good worker?” If your answer is ‘yes‘ then score one for the positive worth category and if ‘no‘ then put it in the how can I improve category. People will always judge you by the outward appearance first like an outside cover to a book without taking the time to see what is on the inside of the pages of the book, but as long as you are happy with the progress of inside your book your self-worth/esteem will be strong. If you are treated as a ghost keep being all you can be for there is someone more important than the people around you watching.

Our ghost world has hidden treasures that people daily miss out on. We have all kinds of things to give to those around us if they would only take the time and give us a chance. I agree there are some people who should never share themselves because of all the bitterness and hatred they have bottled up inside, but they too must find that someone who is more important than people and release the negativity accepting in its place the happiness they can possess in their life. A little side step from the path because all are worth seeing. It is a shame you are not stopped by someone and they receive from you the beautiful hidden treasure inside of you. You have hidden things inside your mind, heart, and soul that is invisible to everyone around you that all could be blessed by.

What intentions are hiding in your heart? What thoughts are you thinking inside your mind? What is really behind your eyes that look upon others? Does it really matter what is going on inside your mind, heart and soul invisible to the other people? They don’t hear your thoughts. They don’t see the intentions of your heart. They don’t know the true will of your soul. If it is out of sight and out of mind of others what does it really matter? Does anyone really care? “Why am I alone and a ghost to the world?”, you may ask. Now, is the time to turn on your hidden spirit from mankind and start reaching, feeling, and finding the one who is more important because He is closer than you think (Acts 17:27).

There is one who cares about your thoughts, intentions of your heart, and the desire of your soul. This particular one not only cares, but can see and read your thoughts clearly. He absolutely loves to extract your thoughts, intentions of your heart, and the desire of your soul out into the open exposing it for all to see including yourself. His thoughts, intentions of his heart, and the desire of His spirit is that everyone might know all the truth of themselves, others, and the mysteries of eternal life. When I read the Bible I am looking forward to what God is getting ready to extract from the hidden shadows below the surface of ghost like treasures in people’s flesh for all to see and learn from.

The amazing part about feeling invisible to others and like a ghost though you are solid like they are God chose a Jewish virgin girl with a fiancé of regular status among the people. Mary and Joseph were not well-known people. They were ordinary people like you and I working side by side as everyone else. God chose these two invisible people to the world to be the ones to take care of His fleshly body temple until that body grew to the age of the appointed ministry. Mary and Joseph may have been invisible to those around them seemingly average people, but hidden inside them was a worth that God saw. If you read John chapter 1 you will see a sad picture of people who did not really see Jesus/God and with all his good deeds was still not seen to be a good person. God Himself is treated like He does not exist. We are in good company.

Jesus like an outward cover to a book was seen outwardly as a Jew with his Jewish disciples were in a region of two towns. A woman of Canaanite nationality came to them, but would have been ignored by most like she was not even there. Some would have avoided her judging her to be a filthy stray dog. She went straight to Jesus crying out loud removing the veil of “I am not here” from those around her to “I am standing right here in front of you“. Remember there is one here that is more important than the people around her that see the hidden treasures of her heart. She said to Jesus, “Lord, Son of David, have mercy on me! My daughter is demon-possessed and suffering terribly.” Hidden inside this ignored woman of society was an understanding that Jesus was Lord and the Son of David fulfilling prophecy. Yet, Jesus remained quiet knowing what was hidden in the hearts around him.

His disciples revealed their hidden thoughts speaking up and saying, “Send her away, for she keeps crying out after us.” How many times do we encounter those who want to avoid us, ignore us, and hope we would keep walking by? We have seen them scatter as we approach them. They don’t want to hear us or talk to us. The disciples were under the Lord’s training and what was in their minds and hearts needed to be corrected. The woman was in the invisible hand of the Lord as a teaching tool for the disciples. He is extracting out of them the hidden things that are not only good for them, but also for the world to see.

After the disciples said, “Send her away, for she keeps crying out after us.” Jesus says to her, “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” This woman now has upon her shoulders “…send her away…” by the crowd and “…only…of Israel…“. The people’s opinion of her worth and by first outward appearance the Lord’s spoken worth of her challenges her of what should she do. Her reply was simply, “Lord, help me!” She did not refute sending her away or it was only to the lost sheep of Israel. The Lord wanted more from this unseen and ignored by the world Canaanite woman. Jesus reached one more time and said to her “It is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”

Her mind has the echoing words of “send her away“, “only Israel“, and now she is hearing she is categorized among the “dogs“. The disciples are standing there hearing what is being said as though Jesus was seeing her as they did putting her in her place. If you have never experienced being totally rejected the level of pain you feel in your heart cannot be explained by words only. She agreed with the Lord that it is not right to take the children’s bread from them. This Canaanite woman did not want to take from Israel even though by most she would be treated as a ghost passing in their midst. She did not want Jesus to stop his ministry. At this point the disciples may be thinking this woman understands that it is not right and will leave them alone. Then she continues saying to the Lord, “Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.” I can see the faces of the disciples when these words registered in their minds and hearts. This is what Jesus wanted to extract from this normally ignored Canaanite woman. She was not a dog to him, but her faith was wrapped with a humility the Lord deemed as greatness.

Wow, what was hidden inside this beautiful woman’s heart is now revealed. How many people around us could have this kind of hidden wisdom left unearthed? Though she was looked down upon, avoided, ignored, and was treated as a ghost by the world she continued inside herself with a respect, a confidence, and a satisfied rock solid belief in God. This is exactly what Jesus/God was looking for to be dug up, extracted, spoke aloud for all to hear. He said to her, “Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.” Her daughter was healed at that very moment when Jesus spoke those words. This Canaanite woman had in her heart Jesus is the Lord, the Son of David at the table feeding the children of Israel God’s bread with the ‘if she could at least get a crumb from that bread‘ attitude would be enough to fill her needs. Her crumb was a full meal to her. One small crumb to one is a full meal to another (Mtt. 15:22-28). It is enough no matter the size if it is from the Lord.

The disciples have been shown faith in the Lord has no separate nationality, color, or gender. They have been shown there is no one invisible and no one God will not take the time to help. They have been shown bottled up inside this woman was a faith as bright and as warm as the sun in the clear blue sky shining upon them. All doors are open unto the Lord. Would the disciples dare to stop anyone from seeing the Lord after hearing such words of faith? Would you want to miss out on someone like this?

She makes me thirst and hunger for that powerful hidden faith to burst forth and shine to the world. The hungry cry we have in our hearts for people to please “See Me” may go unnoticed by mankind, but there is a pair of eyes glowing with love towards the treasure of our hearts. Don’t give up being all you can be in the quietness of your world. Let your faith be a sweet-smelling aroma flowing up from your spirit to the Lord no matter if the world sees it or not. You are worth seeing in the eyes of the Lord, which is more important than all the acknowledgment the world could give you.