Month: May 2017

Don’t Feel Good Now

In the song “Thy Will” there is a part that is speaking to God and it says, “I know you’re good – But this don’t feel good right now – And I know you think – Of things I could never think about – It’s hard to count it all joy – Distracted by the noise – Just trying to make sense – Of all your promises – Sometimes I gotta stop – Remember that you’re God – And I am not  – So – Thy will be done” We all long to escape the things that “…don’t feel good right now…“.  We want to be free from the burden that depresses us. Trouble in our thoughts does not equal joy. The feeling of being trapped and locked into a situation of no escape torments our soul. Yet, there remains that belief, faith, and hope that God sees something that we do not see at the end of our valley.

This takes me to the garden at night with the moon beams of light shinning down like flashlights upon the ground and tree branches with a voice of a man praying, “O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.” Alone he must carry others to safety. You carry things inside of you no one else can understand. If you even shared the burden you carry they would not know how to answer. We all want to be released from the things in this life that “…don’t feel good right now…“.

The unseen burden you have carried upon your heart’s back through the crowds with each step you have taken wishing someone had the sight to see the unseen. You have longed for someone to look into your eyes with the deepness of divine sight of your weeping soul. People who know you cannot see the tears flowing under your cheeks dripping from your spirit’s chin. Where are the arms of unjudging comfort? Where is the shoulder to bury your face into absorbing some of your pain? Where is the lap to lay your head softly upon while drifting into a peaceful sleep? Where is the person you could melt before them with equal understanding to your sorrow?

You may be alone in this world without any physical help mate with equal understanding and compassion. You may have no person’s eyes to look into as you pour yourself out. You may have no person’s ears to speak your broken heart into. You may have no person at all to be by your side. You may be facing absolutely completely loneliness for a physical companion with like-mindedness. You may feel time is passing you by leaving emptiness behind every step taken. Is there no answer or solution to living an empty life?

That night the garden had no arms to offer to hold the man of sorrow, no soft lap to lay his head upon, no shoulder to support his weeping face, and no eyes to look upon for comfort. He knew his time had come when they all would scatter to their own homes leaving him all alone. Before this night he was looked upon as a prince of peace, the everlasting Father among us, the mighty God of miracles, a counselor to the rich and poor, a wonderful man of mercy, and now the man who carries the world upon his shoulders alone born for this cause. He was without another person’s comfort, yet he proclaimed, “…I am not alone…“. Do you want to be able to say that with no reservations of it being the truth?

You can be in your home, apartment, a park, a vehicle, and even in a crowd with no one to comfort you. It doesn’t feel good right now, but now is the time to call upon Him to hold you in His Spiritual arms, pressed against His Spiritual shoulders, and let your spiritual tears flow into His absorbing love for the Father is truly with you when all of mankind is scattered. Though the ache of physical friendship, relationship, and intimacy drives you into sadness. He will not allow it to overtake you. He will not let it push you beyond what you can carry. He will provide a way out so that you can endure coming out the other side a stronger person.

It is time to feel after Him and find Him though He be not far from every one of us. The one that truly knows you, accepts you as you are, and will meet you at your level is God Himself. This is what the man Jesus did in the garden. He surrendered his physical self into the spiritual self of God to carry him when no one else could or would.  It doesn’t feel good right now, but keep the door open for His goodness to walk inside to hold you during these times.

You are not alone. Don’t accept being alone. Allow God to move in with you inside your fleshly apartment never to be alone ever again. He is the best roommate you will ever have and you will never be the same, only better. He will never leave you nor forsake you. You are the one that will have to walk away from Him. If you lock onto Him He will lock onto you. Please allow His warm sunshine light push through your clouds surrendering yourself totally in Him. You and I may be alone with the temporal side of this life, but we will never be alone eternally.

This is how you allow God into your heart, mind, and soul. There are three steps involved. The first step is to surrender yourself completely trusting Him to change your life from lonely darkness and this happens when you talk to Him, most call it praying. The second step is washing away all the sins you have ever committed by being baptized completely under water with saying the name of Jesus over you applying his blood of forgiveness making you clean. The third and final step before your journey begins is to receive His Holy Spirit. You will know you have received Him inside of you when He pours Himself inside of you and He will come back out in such a powerful way the language barrier is broken down and you will find yourself speaking in a language He gives you as His glory saturates you. This is how it happened in the Bible and it did not change only man has changed (Acts 2:38,39). If God wanted to give you this oneness with Him experience would you want it?

You talk about a glorious experience. You can have this fellowship for the rest of your life and never be alone again. He is absolutely my best friend. The world will let me down, but He will never let me down, even when things don’t feel so good. Don’t be alone ever again. God bless you and keep you in His loving arms.

See Me

It is a very saddening experience when you feel like no one sees you. You know you have solid form like everyone else yet it seems like you are a ghost.  If they do by chance see you their opinion of you is not much higher than a stray dog or their facial expression has that looking down their noses on you. The worse of it all is living daily among other people as though you are not there. You get up feed yourself, get dressed for school or work, and walk into a people filled room with no one taking the time to speak kindly with you acknowledging your existence. You would not verbally admit it, but there is that longing inside for others to “See Me” the inside and not by the outside only.

Self-worth/esteem is a respect, a confidence, or a satisfaction opinion you have of yourself. Opinions exist in those on the outside observing you and on the inside with you judging yourself. You may be invisible to others or not worthy of their attention, but you are not invisible to yourself. Examine yourself with thought questions and answering them with raw truth. For example: the thought question “Am I good worker?” If your answer is ‘yes‘ then score one for the positive worth category and if ‘no‘ then put it in the how can I improve category. People will always judge you by the outward appearance first like an outside cover to a book without taking the time to see what is on the inside of the pages of the book, but as long as you are happy with the progress of inside your book your self-worth/esteem will be strong. If you are treated as a ghost keep being all you can be for there is someone more important than the people around you watching.

Our ghost world has hidden treasures that people daily miss out on. We have all kinds of things to give to those around us if they would only take the time and give us a chance. I agree there are some people who should never share themselves because of all the bitterness and hatred they have bottled up inside, but they too must find that someone who is more important than people and release the negativity accepting in its place the happiness they can possess in their life. A little side step from the path because all are worth seeing. It is a shame you are not stopped by someone and they receive from you the beautiful hidden treasure inside of you. You have hidden things inside your mind, heart, and soul that is invisible to everyone around you that all could be blessed by.

What intentions are hiding in your heart? What thoughts are you thinking inside your mind? What is really behind your eyes that look upon others? Does it really matter what is going on inside your mind, heart and soul invisible to the other people? They don’t hear your thoughts. They don’t see the intentions of your heart. They don’t know the true will of your soul. If it is out of sight and out of mind of others what does it really matter? Does anyone really care? “Why am I alone and a ghost to the world?”, you may ask. Now, is the time to turn on your hidden spirit from mankind and start reaching, feeling, and finding the one who is more important because He is closer than you think (Acts 17:27).

There is one who cares about your thoughts, intentions of your heart, and the desire of your soul. This particular one not only cares, but can see and read your thoughts clearly. He absolutely loves to extract your thoughts, intentions of your heart, and the desire of your soul out into the open exposing it for all to see including yourself. His thoughts, intentions of his heart, and the desire of His spirit is that everyone might know all the truth of themselves, others, and the mysteries of eternal life. When I read the Bible I am looking forward to what God is getting ready to extract from the hidden shadows below the surface of ghost like treasures in people’s flesh for all to see and learn from.

The amazing part about feeling invisible to others and like a ghost though you are solid like they are God chose a Jewish virgin girl with a fiancé of regular status among the people. Mary and Joseph were not well-known people. They were ordinary people like you and I working side by side as everyone else. God chose these two invisible people to the world to be the ones to take care of His fleshly body temple until that body grew to the age of the appointed ministry. Mary and Joseph may have been invisible to those around them seemingly average people, but hidden inside them was a worth that God saw. If you read John chapter 1 you will see a sad picture of people who did not really see Jesus/God and with all his good deeds was still not seen to be a good person. God Himself is treated like He does not exist. We are in good company.

Jesus like an outward cover to a book was seen outwardly as a Jew with his Jewish disciples were in a region of two towns. A woman of Canaanite nationality came to them, but would have been ignored by most like she was not even there. Some would have avoided her judging her to be a filthy stray dog. She went straight to Jesus crying out loud removing the veil of “I am not here” from those around her to “I am standing right here in front of you“. Remember there is one here that is more important than the people around her that see the hidden treasures of her heart. She said to Jesus, “Lord, Son of David, have mercy on me! My daughter is demon-possessed and suffering terribly.” Hidden inside this ignored woman of society was an understanding that Jesus was Lord and the Son of David fulfilling prophecy. Yet, Jesus remained quiet knowing what was hidden in the hearts around him.

His disciples revealed their hidden thoughts speaking up and saying, “Send her away, for she keeps crying out after us.” How many times do we encounter those who want to avoid us, ignore us, and hope we would keep walking by? We have seen them scatter as we approach them. They don’t want to hear us or talk to us. The disciples were under the Lord’s training and what was in their minds and hearts needed to be corrected. The woman was in the invisible hand of the Lord as a teaching tool for the disciples. He is extracting out of them the hidden things that are not only good for them, but also for the world to see.

After the disciples said, “Send her away, for she keeps crying out after us.” Jesus says to her, “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” This woman now has upon her shoulders “…send her away…” by the crowd and “…only…of Israel…“. The people’s opinion of her worth and by first outward appearance the Lord’s spoken worth of her challenges her of what should she do. Her reply was simply, “Lord, help me!” She did not refute sending her away or it was only to the lost sheep of Israel. The Lord wanted more from this unseen and ignored by the world Canaanite woman. Jesus reached one more time and said to her “It is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”

Her mind has the echoing words of “send her away“, “only Israel“, and now she is hearing she is categorized among the “dogs“. The disciples are standing there hearing what is being said as though Jesus was seeing her as they did putting her in her place. If you have never experienced being totally rejected the level of pain you feel in your heart cannot be explained by words only. She agreed with the Lord that it is not right to take the children’s bread from them. This Canaanite woman did not want to take from Israel even though by most she would be treated as a ghost passing in their midst. She did not want Jesus to stop his ministry. At this point the disciples may be thinking this woman understands that it is not right and will leave them alone. Then she continues saying to the Lord, “Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.” I can see the faces of the disciples when these words registered in their minds and hearts. This is what Jesus wanted to extract from this normally ignored Canaanite woman. She was not a dog to him, but her faith was wrapped with a humility the Lord deemed as greatness.

Wow, what was hidden inside this beautiful woman’s heart is now revealed. How many people around us could have this kind of hidden wisdom left unearthed? Though she was looked down upon, avoided, ignored, and was treated as a ghost by the world she continued inside herself with a respect, a confidence, and a satisfied rock solid belief in God. This is exactly what Jesus/God was looking for to be dug up, extracted, spoke aloud for all to hear. He said to her, “Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.” Her daughter was healed at that very moment when Jesus spoke those words. This Canaanite woman had in her heart Jesus is the Lord, the Son of David at the table feeding the children of Israel God’s bread with the ‘if she could at least get a crumb from that bread‘ attitude would be enough to fill her needs. Her crumb was a full meal to her. One small crumb to one is a full meal to another (Mtt. 15:22-28). It is enough no matter the size if it is from the Lord.

The disciples have been shown faith in the Lord has no separate nationality, color, or gender. They have been shown there is no one invisible and no one God will not take the time to help. They have been shown bottled up inside this woman was a faith as bright and as warm as the sun in the clear blue sky shining upon them. All doors are open unto the Lord. Would the disciples dare to stop anyone from seeing the Lord after hearing such words of faith? Would you want to miss out on someone like this?

She makes me thirst and hunger for that powerful hidden faith to burst forth and shine to the world. The hungry cry we have in our hearts for people to please “See Me” may go unnoticed by mankind, but there is a pair of eyes glowing with love towards the treasure of our hearts. Don’t give up being all you can be in the quietness of your world. Let your faith be a sweet-smelling aroma flowing up from your spirit to the Lord no matter if the world sees it or not. You are worth seeing in the eyes of the Lord, which is more important than all the acknowledgment the world could give you.

Love Deficiency

“…Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.” Mtt. 4:4. Jesus answer to the devil about turning stones into bread.

You may be thinking what does “Love Deficiency” have to do with man not living by bread alone, but also man lives by every word that comes from the mouth of God. Love is defined in the dictionary as an intense feeling of deep affection, romantic, or sexual attachment. Deficiency is defined in the dictionary as a lack, a shortage, a failing, or a shortcoming. Love is a bundle of several things in one and deficiency is basically a lacking. We all can see things in our lives that would match the definition of “Love Deficiency” in various areas. What is the cure for the “Love Deficiency” in your life?

“…Man shall not live on bread alone…” shows us “…bread…” as the food substance that feeds our physical bodies to live in this world . The word “…alone…” reveals that this is only a single aspect to our living existence. We physically eat bread to satisfy our physical hunger on a daily basis. We feed our bodies everyday with physical food and without feeding ourselves everyday we will begin to slowly physically die. This is totally about our physical side. We have another side to us invisible to the human eye.

We have two basic sides to us – physical and spiritual. We see everyday how well people are feeding themselves physically from the small to the large. What we do not see under our noses and on others is the spiritual size of small to large. This may show you how you are trying to feed your spiritual side with your physical flesh. This may also show you people around you trying to feed their spiritual hunger through their flesh. Our flesh will never totally satisfy the hunger and thirst of our eternal spirit. The reason is because we are trying to feed an eternal substance (our spirit eternal side) with temporary passing away substance (our flesh dying side). This is where “Love Deficiency” comes into play with our spirit. All the physical pleasures, joys, and loves of this life fall short in completing our spirit. Let us continue down this path exploring our lives and what we have observed in others.

You may have past or present memories of your mom filling your life with hugs and kisses. You may have past or present memories of your dad can chasing you and tickling you. You may have past or present memories of your brother, sister, or both picking on you. You may have past or present memories of your friend laughing and crying with you. You may have past or present memories of your boyfriend or girlfriend holding your hand, sharing a kiss, and a holding of each other’s arms. You may have past or present memories of your teacher or coach patting you on the back for a job well done. You may have past or present memories of your professor can shaking your hand for being the caliber student that you are. You may have past or present memories of your wife or husband being intimate with you satisfying all your needs. You may have past or present memories of your children hugging your neck. You may have past or present memories of your boss and co-workers smiling when they see you. You may have past or present memories of your workers under your leadership bragging on your managing skills. You may have past or present memories of your fan club giving you faces of adoration. You may have past or present memories of your pets giving you that seemingly unwavering attention. You may have past or present memories of your music moving during emotional times.

AFFECTION

All the above was a quick passage of times possibly in your life. If you want to slow down on one thing from above and focus on that memory that would be good because everything from the list of memories is on the “…bread alone…” side of this life. Your parent’s and families deep affection fed your physical side. The hug, the kiss on the forehead or cheek, and the pat on the head or back touched you physically from a temporary source. Your parents and family do not have the spiritual power to completely satisfy your spiritual hunger. Yes, they can imprint, influence, and train your spirit, but not enough to totally satisfy your spirit hunger. This is about “Love Deficiency” hidden inside of us and others. There is a deception from our flesh that all we need is a good mother, father, brother, sister, other family members, boyfriend/girlfriend, and spouse to support us with the happiness we long for. Some people are starving below their flesh for a happy family with the thinking that this is the cure for their “Love Deficiency“. They will fantasize of that dream family, boyfriend/girlfriend, or spouse, but the lacking and emptiness is still there in their heart.

ROMANTIC

A hunger for affection different from a families affection enters into our hearts. We all start seeking a boyfriend/girlfriend, or a best friend to share things in a way we don’t want to share with our family. This is also on the “…bread alone…” side of our flesh. We go after that person with an obsession of that we’ve got to have them in our life to satisfy that heart pumping desire. This is another deception from the side of our flesh. Only something that is spirit can feed spirit. Flesh can only feed flesh with temporary satisfaction impacting the spirit side. You can even marry or live with someone thinking this will complete your life, but only to find all the affection, romantic, and sexual contact still does not satisfy the emptiness of your spirit.

It does not matter how happy or sad you are in the love relationship the “Love Deficiency” will always be there no matter how hard you try or fantasize. This is the “…bread alone…” physical side of our flesh. Our spirit side must be fed by spirit. Our spirit is made in God’s image and God’s likeness. It cannot be fed and truly happy until it is fed by God. This is our other side hidden from us by our flesh and the devil. We can go our entire earthly life time filling it up with everything we see in this world and never completely satisfy the spirit. Flooding our lives with physical highs from alcohol, drugs, sports, movies, novels, adventures, sexual exploits, fantasizes, and hobbies are all from the temporary sources and not the unseen source of God.

We are suffering from a “Love Deficiency” that is killing us inside out because the outside cannot become one with the inside. Our outside is temporary and is daily getting closer to death, but our inside is eternal getting closer to eternal life. The only thing that can merge with our spirit with complete satisfaction is eating the spiritual bread of life spoken to our spirit from God. When you pray, read God’s word, sing to Him, worship Him and something connects in your spirit with a joyous feeling and inward glow of glory it is His Spirit merging with your spirit in a communion of oneness the world could never give you. You cannot feed your family, boyfriend/girlfriend, wife, husband, son, daughter, or friends this feeding of the soul because we are on the side of the “…bread alone…” and God is on the side of spoken spirit word.

No matter how strong your love is towards another person you cannot enter into their spirit. You can shower them with your love and influence, but only God can move inside with their spirit bringing complete satisfaction. The devil tries to enter into a person’s body, not a completing of the spirit, but more of a domination of control of that spirit in bondage. God’s word feeds our spirit a liberation of truth with complete satisfaction of spiritual thirst and hunger. It is spirit to spirit and not flesh to spirit. The bread of this world and everything else in it is for the flesh. God’s Spirit inside of us in this world feeds our spirit the translation of truths of eternal life.

Our “Love Deficiency” is the hunger and thirst of our soul. Our attempts to feed it will always fall short and fail satisfying its eternal longing with the temporary side of this life. We need to add to our daily bread the prayer life of fellowship with God satisfy the growling noise in our spiritual stomachs. We need to equalize or better our efforts that we put into our physical side into the our spiritual side for one will pass away and the other will not. I know you know you have the “Love Deficiency” inside of you. I know I have the “Love Deficiency“, but the difference is knowing the cure and what you do about it. This is why when I pray for someone I know God can go places inside of them that I could never go and His word can reach things inside of them my words never could.

Set your goals along side of feeding your physical body daily with feeding your spirit to know God and the Jesus man side of God allowing His wisdom that is pure, peaceable, gentle and easy to give to others full of mercy, good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy satisfy your spirit (Jn. 17:3, Ja. 3:17). The “Love Deficiency” will go away with the balance feeding of your spirit and body until the day you depart from your body passing on your spirit from this life to His.